1 00:00:02,600 --> 00:00:04,800 Nicole: I HATE WHAT MY LIFE HAS BECOME. 2 00:00:04,800 --> 00:00:06,700 AND IF I DON'T CHANGE, 3 00:00:06,700 --> 00:00:08,767 I'M NOT GONNA BE HERE MUCH LONGER. 4 00:00:15,500 --> 00:00:16,933 Man: NOT FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I THOUGHT 5 00:00:16,933 --> 00:00:18,833 MY LIFE WOULD END UP LIKE THIS. 6 00:00:18,833 --> 00:00:20,867 OW, MY LEG! 7 00:00:20,867 --> 00:00:23,700 Woman 8 00:00:23,700 --> 00:00:28,700 Woman HELP, OR I AM GONNA DIE. 9 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:35,633 -I CAN'T DO THIS. -WELL, I'M RIGHT UNDER YOU. 10 00:00:35,633 --> 00:00:36,967 -I NEED OVER! -YOU'RE FINE. 11 00:00:36,967 --> 00:00:39,667 -YOU'RE FINE. -I HATE THIS. 12 00:00:43,800 --> 00:00:45,633 Woman I LET MY KIDS DOWN. 13 00:00:45,633 --> 00:00:47,233 INSTEAD OF ME TAKING CARE OF THEM, 14 00:00:47,233 --> 00:00:49,100 THEY'RE BEEN TAKING CARE OF ME. 15 00:00:49,100 --> 00:00:52,267 IT'S YOU -- YOU ARE THE ONE KILLING HIM. 16 00:00:56,733 --> 00:00:58,567 CHARLIE, YOU KNOW WHAT? IF YOU AREN'T GONNA BE 17 00:00:58,567 --> 00:01:00,067 SUPPORTIVE, YOU CAN [BLEEP] LEAVE! 18 00:01:00,067 --> 00:01:01,767 I AM BEING SUPPORTIVE! THAT'S WHY I'M HERE! 19 00:01:01,767 --> 00:01:03,633 Nicole: I SHOULD'VE NEVER TRIED TO DO THIS. 20 00:01:03,633 --> 00:01:06,633 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 21 00:01:06,633 --> 00:01:09,667 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 22 00:01:12,300 --> 00:01:14,233 Nicole: SOMETIMES YOU CAN'T CONTROL 23 00:01:14,233 --> 00:01:17,533 THE PLACES YOU END UP IN LIFE. 24 00:01:17,533 --> 00:01:21,133 AND THE CHOICES YOU MAKE IN THE HARD PLACES 25 00:01:21,133 --> 00:01:24,333 ARE WHAT DETERMINE YOU FUTURE, ABOVE ALL ELSE. 26 00:01:28,567 --> 00:01:30,700 ** 27 00:01:41,500 --> 00:01:43,433 [ GRUNTS ] 28 00:01:50,867 --> 00:01:54,933 EVERY DAY WHEN I GET UP, I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING. 29 00:01:57,533 --> 00:02:01,100 BECAUSE IT'S VERY HARD FOR ME TO BREATHE, 30 00:02:01,100 --> 00:02:03,900 AND MY LUNGS FEEL VERY COMPRESSED. 31 00:02:03,900 --> 00:02:06,900 SO I HAVE TO TAKE EXTRA DEEP BREATHS IN 32 00:02:06,900 --> 00:02:10,067 JUST TO BE ABLE TO MOVE. 33 00:02:10,067 --> 00:02:12,800 AND MY BACK HURTS. 34 00:02:12,800 --> 00:02:16,300 MY BODY JUST TREMBLES IN PAIN. 35 00:02:18,733 --> 00:02:21,633 AND IT NEVER ENDS. 36 00:02:21,633 --> 00:02:23,833 IT JUST GETS WORSE. 37 00:02:23,833 --> 00:02:27,467 AND IT'S HELL TO GET OUT OF BED. 38 00:02:27,467 --> 00:02:29,900 BUT AS SOON AS I GET UP IN THE MORNING, 39 00:02:29,900 --> 00:02:33,467 I GOT TO EAT SOMETHING, OR I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA THROW UP. 40 00:02:33,467 --> 00:02:36,733 SO I KEEP SOMETHING TO SNACK ON IN MY ROOM. 41 00:02:36,733 --> 00:02:40,467 BUT I STILL CAN'T GET UP TO GET IT MYSELF. 42 00:02:40,467 --> 00:02:43,067 -CHARLIE! -YEAH? 43 00:02:43,067 --> 00:02:44,267 CAN YOU PLEASE COME HERE? 44 00:02:44,267 --> 00:02:48,267 CAN YOU PLEASE GET ME THOSE POTATO CHIPS? 45 00:02:54,900 --> 00:02:57,833 I'M GONNA GO GATHER ALL YOUR BATH STUFF. 46 00:02:57,833 --> 00:03:01,467 THANK YOU. 47 00:03:01,467 --> 00:03:02,833 I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG 48 00:03:02,833 --> 00:03:06,333 THAT I CAN BARELY GET UP AND GET AROUND. 49 00:03:06,333 --> 00:03:09,500 SO MY PARENTS LIVE WITH US 50 00:03:09,500 --> 00:03:13,500 TO HELP TAKE CARE OF ME AND MY TWO KIDS. 51 00:03:13,500 --> 00:03:19,067 BUT USUALLY IT'S CHARLIE WHO HELPS ME IN THE MORNING. 52 00:03:19,067 --> 00:03:21,500 I CAN'T FIT THROUGH THE BATHROOM DOOR ANYMORE, 53 00:03:21,500 --> 00:03:24,867 SO THEY HAVE TO TAKE EVERYTHING OUTSIDE ON THE BACK PORCH. 54 00:03:24,867 --> 00:03:27,967 AND I BATHE THERE. 55 00:03:27,967 --> 00:03:31,067 MY DAD HOOKS UP A GARDEN HOSE 56 00:03:31,067 --> 00:03:33,600 TO THE HOT WATER, THE WASHER, 57 00:03:33,600 --> 00:03:37,367 AND RUNS IT OUTSIDE... 58 00:03:37,367 --> 00:03:41,100 BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE CLEANED OUTSIDE LIKE AN ANIMAL. 59 00:03:49,900 --> 00:03:53,200 CHARLIE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 60 00:03:53,200 --> 00:03:55,100 -PLEASE HELP ME. -WHAT DO YOU NEED? 61 00:03:58,667 --> 00:04:02,133 IT'S VERY EMBARRASSING. 62 00:04:02,133 --> 00:04:04,300 WHO SITS BUTT-NAKED IN A WHEELCHAIR 63 00:04:04,300 --> 00:04:06,367 ON THEIR BACK PORCH TO GET A SHOWER? 64 00:04:06,367 --> 00:04:07,667 SHOES, PLEASE. 65 00:04:07,667 --> 00:04:10,333 YOU BATHE YOUR DOG IN YOUR BACKYARD. 66 00:04:10,333 --> 00:04:11,933 YOU DON'T BATHE YOUR GIRLFRIEND. 67 00:04:15,567 --> 00:04:17,800 BUT I DON'T HAVE ANOTHER OPTION. 68 00:04:22,633 --> 00:04:25,533 EVEN THOUGH CHARLIE'S VERY DEVOTED TO ME, 69 00:04:25,533 --> 00:04:27,633 I FEEL VERY HUMILIATED. 70 00:04:32,500 --> 00:04:35,767 I KNOW CHARLIE SAYS HE DOESN'T MIND, 71 00:04:35,767 --> 00:04:38,733 BUT IT'S NOT RIGHT THAT HE HAS TO DO THIS FOR ME. 72 00:04:41,833 --> 00:04:44,667 Charlie: NICOLE TELLS ME THAT IT'S VERY HUMILIATING 73 00:04:44,667 --> 00:04:47,100 THAT I HAVE TO HOSE HER BUTT. 74 00:04:47,100 --> 00:04:49,167 IT'S GROSS SOMETIMES, 75 00:04:49,167 --> 00:04:52,333 BUT IT'S WHAT I GOT TO DO TO TAKE CARE OF THE WOMAN I LOVE. 76 00:04:52,333 --> 00:04:55,067 AND I WOULD JUMP THROUGH FLAMING HOOPS FOR HER. 77 00:04:56,267 --> 00:04:59,300 ALL RIGHT. 78 00:04:59,300 --> 00:05:00,667 A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE PROBLEMS, 79 00:05:00,667 --> 00:05:05,067 AND THEY CAN JUST LEAVE THEM AT HOME OR HIDE THEM. 80 00:05:05,067 --> 00:05:07,833 I CAN'T HIDE MY PROBLEM. IT'S VISIBLE FOR EVERYBODY. 81 00:05:12,667 --> 00:05:15,233 BEING MY WEIGHT IS HORRIBLE... 82 00:05:15,233 --> 00:05:18,367 BECAUSE I CAN BARELY EVEN FUNCTION. 83 00:05:22,600 --> 00:05:25,667 I JUST HATE MY WHOLE BODY. 84 00:05:28,367 --> 00:05:31,800 BUT I HATE MY STOMACH THE MOST. 85 00:05:31,800 --> 00:05:33,400 IT HURTS, AND IT'S HANGING. 86 00:05:35,100 --> 00:05:37,533 AND SOMETIMES IT ALMOST FEELS 87 00:05:37,533 --> 00:05:40,133 LIKE IT'S GONNA RIP OFF MY BODY. 88 00:05:43,467 --> 00:05:46,067 YEAH, LEAN BACK. 89 00:05:48,833 --> 00:05:50,800 I'M SICK OF FEELING LIKE THIS. 90 00:05:50,800 --> 00:05:54,633 I'M SICK OF LOOKING LIKE THIS. 91 00:05:54,633 --> 00:05:59,067 AND I'M SICK OF NOT BEING ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF... 92 00:05:59,067 --> 00:06:01,600 BECAUSE I FEEL VERY TRAPPED. 93 00:06:04,633 --> 00:06:08,567 THIS IS NOWHERE NEAR WHERE I THOUGHT I WOULD END UP. 94 00:06:08,567 --> 00:06:11,100 AND I DON'T RECOGNIZE MYSELF ANYMORE. 95 00:06:13,067 --> 00:06:17,600 I WOULD'VE NEVER IMAGINED THAT I WOULD BECOME SOMETHING I HATE. 96 00:06:24,133 --> 00:06:28,200 I'VE STRUGGLED WITH MY WEIGHT ALMOST MY ENTIRE LIFE. 97 00:06:30,567 --> 00:06:32,433 AND EVEN AS A TODDLER, 98 00:06:32,433 --> 00:06:35,133 I REMEMBER FOOD IS WHAT MADE ME HAPPY. 99 00:06:38,300 --> 00:06:42,567 WHEN I WAS LITTLE, ME AND MY MOM NEVER REALLY GOT ALONG 100 00:06:42,567 --> 00:06:45,067 BECAUSE SHE HAD A REALLY BAD TEMPER 101 00:06:45,067 --> 00:06:46,367 AND WOULD EXPLODE ON ME 102 00:06:46,367 --> 00:06:49,100 FOR THINGS THAT I JUST DIDN'T UNDERSTAND. 103 00:06:52,067 --> 00:06:53,300 AND WHEN THAT HAPPENED, 104 00:06:53,300 --> 00:06:55,067 I WOULD ALWAYS RUN TO THE GARAGE 105 00:06:55,067 --> 00:06:58,800 BECAUSE MY DAD WAS OUT THERE WORKING ON SOMETHING. 106 00:06:58,800 --> 00:07:00,467 MY DAD WOULD CALL ME A DADDY'S GIRL 107 00:07:00,467 --> 00:07:04,233 BECAUSE I WOULD JUST ALWAYS WANT TO BE AROUND HIM. 108 00:07:04,233 --> 00:07:05,900 SO I WOULD JUST SIT WITH HIM, 109 00:07:05,900 --> 00:07:08,700 AND HE WOULD ALWAYS GIVE ME A SNACK. 110 00:07:08,700 --> 00:07:11,367 AND THAT WAS SAFETY. 111 00:07:11,367 --> 00:07:15,067 Jim: NICOLE WAS A HAPPY, KIND OF BIG CHILD GROWING UP. 112 00:07:15,067 --> 00:07:17,067 WE HAD A REAL CLOSE RELATIONSHIP. 113 00:07:17,067 --> 00:07:18,533 WHEN SHE WAS 7 OR 8 YEARS OLD, 114 00:07:18,533 --> 00:07:22,133 I NOTICED SHE WAS REALLY HEAVY FOR HER AGE. 115 00:07:22,133 --> 00:07:25,133 AND I THOUGHT SHE'D LOSE THE WEIGHT WHEN SHE GOT OLDER. 116 00:07:25,133 --> 00:07:28,600 BUT SHE JUST KEPT GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER AND BIGGER. 117 00:07:31,067 --> 00:07:34,067 Nicole: I NEVER WANTED TO LEAVE HIS SIDE. 118 00:07:34,067 --> 00:07:38,233 BUT MY DAD WAS A TRUCK DRIVER, SO HE WAS ON THE ROAD A LOT. 119 00:07:38,233 --> 00:07:42,800 AND WHEN HE WASN'T THERE, ALL I HAD TO RUN TO WAS FOOD. 120 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:50,267 AND BY THE TIME I WAS 14, I WAS WELL OVER 200 POUNDS. 121 00:07:50,267 --> 00:07:53,433 BUT THEN THINGS GOT EVEN WORSE. 122 00:07:57,100 --> 00:08:00,200 MY DAD STARTED USING COCAINE ON THE ROAD. 123 00:08:00,200 --> 00:08:02,867 AND HE BROUGHT IT HOME TO MY MOM. 124 00:08:02,867 --> 00:08:06,233 SO THEY BOTH GOT ADDICTED. 125 00:08:06,233 --> 00:08:09,633 AND THINGS GOT A LOT MORE VIOLENT IN OUR HOUSE AFTER THAT. 126 00:08:09,633 --> 00:08:12,367 MY DAD AND MOM WOULD GET SO ANGRY 127 00:08:12,367 --> 00:08:14,633 BECAUSE THEY WOULD RUN OUT OF COCAINE. 128 00:08:14,633 --> 00:08:17,967 MY MOM WOULD STAY UP FOR HOURS 129 00:08:17,967 --> 00:08:22,267 SCREAMING AND CRYING FOR MORE DRUGS. 130 00:08:22,267 --> 00:08:24,400 SO I WAS SCARED. 131 00:08:24,400 --> 00:08:27,333 AND WHEN MY PARENTS WERE DOING THE DRUGS, 132 00:08:27,333 --> 00:08:28,567 I WOULD GET SO MAD. 133 00:08:28,567 --> 00:08:30,867 I WOULD SCREAM AND HOLLER AT THEM. 134 00:08:30,867 --> 00:08:33,867 AND THEY'D JUST IGNORE ME. 135 00:08:33,867 --> 00:08:36,967 AND I WOULD GO IN MY ROOM AND EAT AND LAY ON MY BED 136 00:08:36,967 --> 00:08:41,467 AND JUST CRY FOR HOURS TILL I FELL ASLEEP. 137 00:08:41,467 --> 00:08:44,433 FOOD WAS A COMFORT TO ME BECAUSE WHEN I WOULD EAT SOMETHING 138 00:08:44,433 --> 00:08:46,867 AND I WOULD BECOME FULL, I FELT COMFORTABLE. 139 00:08:46,867 --> 00:08:50,600 I FELT SAFE. I FELT SECURE. 140 00:08:50,600 --> 00:08:53,100 AND SO I JUST DIDN'T STOP EATING. 141 00:08:53,100 --> 00:08:58,100 AND BY THE TIME I WAS 16, I WAS APPROACHING 400 POUNDS. 142 00:09:01,267 --> 00:09:03,433 AND THAT'S WHEN MY DAD GOT ARRESTED 143 00:09:03,433 --> 00:09:06,800 AND WENT TO PRISON FOR DRUGS. 144 00:09:06,800 --> 00:09:10,367 IT WAS A VERY DIFFICULT TIME FOR ME AND MY MOM 145 00:09:10,367 --> 00:09:13,633 BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T HAVE A JOB, 146 00:09:13,633 --> 00:09:17,067 SO WE DIDN'T HAVE ANY MONEY. 147 00:09:17,067 --> 00:09:19,200 WE WERE FORCED TO LEAVE 148 00:09:19,200 --> 00:09:21,533 THE HOUSE WE WERE RENTING AT THE TIME. 149 00:09:21,533 --> 00:09:24,733 AND WE HAD NOWHERE TO GO, SO WE BECAME HOMELESS. 150 00:09:24,733 --> 00:09:27,267 WE HAD TO RELY ON SOUP KITCHENS. 151 00:09:27,267 --> 00:09:29,200 AND ALL THE SOUP KITCHENS WOULD SERVE WAS, LIKE, 152 00:09:29,200 --> 00:09:33,600 PASTA AND HIGH-FATTENING FOODS. 153 00:09:33,600 --> 00:09:35,800 AND LIVING MEAL TO MEAL IS SCARY. 154 00:09:35,800 --> 00:09:39,700 SO WHEN I ATE, I ATE AS MUCH AS I COULD. 155 00:09:39,700 --> 00:09:41,967 AND BY THE TIME MY DAD GOT OUT OF PRISON, 156 00:09:41,967 --> 00:09:45,967 WHEN I WAS 18, I WAS UP TO 500 POUNDS. 157 00:09:48,733 --> 00:09:50,367 AND WITH MY DAD HOME AGAIN, 158 00:09:50,367 --> 00:09:54,833 WE WERE ABLE TO GET A HOUSE AND GET OFF THE STREETS. 159 00:09:54,833 --> 00:09:58,667 BUT EVEN AFTER HIM BEING SOBER IN PRISON FOR TWO YEARS, 160 00:09:58,667 --> 00:10:03,167 HIM AND MY MOM GOT RIGHT BACK INTO DRUGS. 161 00:10:03,167 --> 00:10:06,300 AND SO I MOVED OUT. 162 00:10:06,300 --> 00:10:08,300 AND THAT WAS THE ONLY TIME IN MY LIFE 163 00:10:08,300 --> 00:10:10,200 WHEN I FELT A LITTLE NORMAL. 164 00:10:13,267 --> 00:10:14,567 I GOT A JOB, 165 00:10:14,567 --> 00:10:17,867 AND I EVEN STARTED EXERCISING A LITTLE. 166 00:10:17,867 --> 00:10:19,600 AND EVEN THOUGH I WAS VERY BIG, 167 00:10:19,600 --> 00:10:22,867 I WAS JUST YOUR AVERAGE GIRL THAT JUST LOVED HAVING FUN -- 168 00:10:22,867 --> 00:10:24,833 DRIVING AROUND, LISTENING TO MUSIC, 169 00:10:24,833 --> 00:10:27,067 GOING TO CONCERTS. 170 00:10:27,067 --> 00:10:28,900 I WAS JUST VERY OUTGOING. 171 00:10:28,900 --> 00:10:33,433 AND I EVEN STARTED DATING SOMEONE. 172 00:10:33,433 --> 00:10:38,933 AND THEN WHEN I WAS 20, I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SON. 173 00:10:38,933 --> 00:10:44,167 AND MY BOYFRIEND GOT SCARED AND LEFT ME AND HIS CHILD. 174 00:10:44,167 --> 00:10:46,367 AND I ENDED UP GETTING BLOOD CLOTS. 175 00:10:46,367 --> 00:10:49,267 SO I HAD TO STAY ON BED REST. 176 00:10:49,267 --> 00:10:51,033 AND I REMEMBER A DOCTOR 177 00:10:51,033 --> 00:10:52,467 LOOKING ME RIGHT IN MY FACE SAYING, 178 00:10:52,467 --> 00:10:56,433 "NICOLE, IF I TAKE YOU OFF THIS I.V. AND YOU GO HOME, 179 00:10:56,433 --> 00:10:59,133 YOU'RE GOING TO DIE." 180 00:10:59,133 --> 00:11:01,567 I DIDN'T WANT TO LOSE MY BABY. 181 00:11:01,567 --> 00:11:04,500 I DIDN'T WANT TO LOSE MY LIFE. 182 00:11:04,500 --> 00:11:08,800 AND I DIDN'T HAVE ANYONE TO TURN TO. 183 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:11,967 BUT THAT'S WHEN I MET CHARLIE. 184 00:11:11,967 --> 00:11:13,167 WE MET ONLINE. 185 00:11:13,167 --> 00:11:15,433 AND HE WAS VERY NICE TO ME. 186 00:11:15,433 --> 00:11:17,900 I WAS VERY RUDE TO HIM. 187 00:11:17,900 --> 00:11:20,433 I TOLD HIM TO LEAVE ME ALONE. I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO HIM. 188 00:11:20,433 --> 00:11:21,800 BECAUSE I WAS STILL HURT WITH THE FACT 189 00:11:21,800 --> 00:11:24,667 THAT JADEN'S DAD JUST LEFT. 190 00:11:24,667 --> 00:11:27,433 AND CHARLIE JUST KEPT ASKING ABOUT ME 191 00:11:27,433 --> 00:11:28,600 AND ASKING HOW I WAS DOING. 192 00:11:28,600 --> 00:11:31,400 AND I FELT LIKE SOMEONE CARED ABOUT ME. 193 00:11:31,400 --> 00:11:34,867 SO HE WENT TO MY ULTRASOUND APPOINTMENT WITH ME. 194 00:11:34,867 --> 00:11:38,500 AND CHARLIE ASKED ME IF I WOULD BE HIS GIRLFRIEND. 195 00:11:38,500 --> 00:11:41,133 Charlie: THE FIRST TIME I SAW NICOLE, MY JAW DROPPED. 196 00:11:41,133 --> 00:11:44,300 I WAS LIKE, "WOW. LOOK AT HER." 197 00:11:44,300 --> 00:11:46,367 AND THE BLUE EYES LOOKED AT ME, 198 00:11:46,367 --> 00:11:49,600 AND I JUST MELTED RIGHT THEN AND THERE. 199 00:11:51,833 --> 00:11:54,500 Nicole: SO CHARLIE STARTED TAKING CARE OF ME. 200 00:11:54,500 --> 00:11:57,833 AND I STAYED BEDRIDDEN UNTIL I GAVE BIRTH. 201 00:11:57,833 --> 00:12:03,100 AND I ENDED UP GAINING 120 POUNDS DURING THAT TIME. 202 00:12:03,100 --> 00:12:06,467 AND JADEN ACTUALLY CAME OUT NOT BREATHING. 203 00:12:06,467 --> 00:12:09,367 HIS BODY HAD A VERY BAD DIABETIC ATTACK 204 00:12:09,367 --> 00:12:12,700 BECAUSE HE WASN'T RECEIVING SUGAR FROM MY BODY ANYMORE. 205 00:12:15,267 --> 00:12:18,333 AND THAT WAS BECAUSE OF ME. 206 00:12:18,333 --> 00:12:20,433 I WAS OVER 600 POUNDS THEN. 207 00:12:20,433 --> 00:12:23,933 AND IT ALMOST KILLED MY NEWBORN CHILD. 208 00:12:23,933 --> 00:12:25,267 AND AFTER I HAD JADEN, 209 00:12:25,267 --> 00:12:27,200 I COULDN'T GET UP AND DO MUCH ANYMORE, 210 00:12:27,200 --> 00:12:30,233 SO CHARLIE KEPT TAKING CARE OF ME. 211 00:12:30,233 --> 00:12:32,300 AND WHEN I WAS 22, 212 00:12:32,300 --> 00:12:34,500 I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY SECOND CHILD. 213 00:12:34,500 --> 00:12:36,700 I GAVE BIRTH TO SHELBY. 214 00:12:36,700 --> 00:12:37,967 I'D PUT ON SO MUCH WEIGHT, 215 00:12:37,967 --> 00:12:40,133 I EITHER HAD TO STAY IN BED ALL DAY 216 00:12:40,133 --> 00:12:42,833 OR USE A WHEELCHAIR TO GET AROUND... 217 00:12:45,067 --> 00:12:48,333 ...WHICH FORCED MY PARENTS TO MOVE IN WITH ME. 218 00:12:48,333 --> 00:12:51,433 BUT I MADE THEM PROMISE THAT THEY WERE DRUG-FREE. 219 00:12:51,433 --> 00:12:54,167 AND I TOLD THEM IF THEY BROUGHT DRUGS INTO MY HOUSE, 220 00:12:54,167 --> 00:12:57,567 THEY WOULD BE GONE IN A HEARTBEAT. 221 00:12:57,567 --> 00:13:01,067 BUT IF THAT HAPPENED, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'D DO. 222 00:13:04,100 --> 00:13:06,300 ADDICTION DESTROYED MY CHILDHOOD. 223 00:13:06,300 --> 00:13:08,067 AND I DON'T WANT THAT FOR THEM. 224 00:13:12,667 --> 00:13:15,333 BUT NOW I'M 23 YEARS OLD, 225 00:13:15,333 --> 00:13:18,067 AND I CAN BARELY WALK FOR MORE THAN A MINUTE. 226 00:13:18,067 --> 00:13:22,100 AND I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF MYSELF OR MY KIDS ON MY OWN. 227 00:13:27,667 --> 00:13:31,500 BUT I HATE HAVING TO RELY ON MY PARENTS. 228 00:13:31,500 --> 00:13:33,733 Darlene: JADEN'S IN THE BATHROOM! 229 00:13:33,733 --> 00:13:35,733 BETTER GET HIM OUT OF THERE, HON! 230 00:13:38,500 --> 00:13:40,900 Nicole: AND MY MOM DOESN'T WANT TO HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM 231 00:13:40,900 --> 00:13:44,267 ALL THE TIME, EITHER. 232 00:13:44,267 --> 00:13:49,167 SHE ONLY DOES IT SO I DON'T LOSE THEM. 233 00:13:49,167 --> 00:13:50,933 BUT IT FRUSTRATES HER. 234 00:13:56,967 --> 00:13:59,200 JADEN. 235 00:13:59,200 --> 00:14:01,433 JADE, COME HERE. 236 00:14:01,433 --> 00:14:05,067 COME HERE. JADEN, PLEASE? 237 00:14:05,067 --> 00:14:08,267 CAN YOU SHUT THE WATER OFF AND COME WITH MOMMY? 238 00:14:08,267 --> 00:14:10,267 JADEN, PLEASE COME ON! 239 00:14:10,267 --> 00:14:12,167 OKAY. 240 00:14:12,167 --> 00:14:16,067 I CAN'T FIT IN THE BATHROOM DOOR. 241 00:14:16,067 --> 00:14:18,067 I CAN'T FIT IN THE BATHROOM DOOR, MOM. 242 00:14:18,067 --> 00:14:21,500 Darlene: ALL RIGHT. I'LL GET HIM. 243 00:14:21,500 --> 00:14:24,067 Nicole: I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF MY KIDS. 244 00:14:24,067 --> 00:14:26,500 BUT THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW. 245 00:14:26,500 --> 00:14:29,433 YEAH, I'M JUST SCARED HE'S GONNA GET AHOLD OF... 246 00:14:29,433 --> 00:14:30,800 GET AHOLD OF THAT HANDLE 247 00:14:30,800 --> 00:14:33,967 AND GET ON THE HOT SIDE AND HURT HIMSELF. 248 00:14:33,967 --> 00:14:35,467 COME HERE, SHELBY. 249 00:14:35,467 --> 00:14:37,867 YOU GO IN THERE... 250 00:14:37,867 --> 00:14:39,900 LORD ONLY KNOWS WHAT WOULD HAPPEN. 251 00:14:42,833 --> 00:14:44,667 Nicole: AND MY MOM GETS UPSET 252 00:14:44,667 --> 00:14:47,767 BECAUSE I'M SO BIG, I CAN'T DO ANYTHING. 253 00:14:47,767 --> 00:14:50,800 WHAT ARE YOU DOING, JADEN? 254 00:14:50,800 --> 00:14:52,667 I'M JUST SICK OF THIS [BLEEP] 255 00:14:52,667 --> 00:14:56,533 I NEED HELP WITH THESE DAMN KIDS! 256 00:14:56,533 --> 00:14:59,700 SHE GETS UPSET LIKE SHE DID WHEN I WAS A CHILD, 257 00:14:59,700 --> 00:15:03,067 AND SHE TAKES IT OUT ON ME AND MY KIDS. 258 00:15:03,067 --> 00:15:06,600 SOMETIMES SHE'LL CALL ME A FAT ASS 259 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:09,933 OR JUST SOME REALLY VULGAR THINGS 260 00:15:09,933 --> 00:15:14,333 WHEN SHE'S UPSET OR FRUSTRATED. 261 00:15:14,333 --> 00:15:16,067 AND IT HURTS ME THAT MY KIDS THINK 262 00:15:16,067 --> 00:15:19,233 THEIR GRANDMOTHER IS THEIR MOM AND THAT I'M NOT EVEN A PARENT. 263 00:15:19,233 --> 00:15:20,500 GO ON. 264 00:15:20,500 --> 00:15:24,733 ONE TIME, I SAID TO MY SON, "DO YOU LOVE MAMA?" 265 00:15:24,733 --> 00:15:28,333 AND HE LOOKED OVER AT MY MOM AND SMILED. 266 00:15:28,333 --> 00:15:33,567 AND IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE HE WAS CALLING HER MAMA. 267 00:15:33,567 --> 00:15:35,433 AND THAT'S VERY HURTFUL. 268 00:15:35,433 --> 00:15:37,700 [ LAUGHING ] 269 00:15:37,700 --> 00:15:40,467 I KNOW THAT HOW I'M LIVING RIGHT NOW 270 00:15:40,467 --> 00:15:42,800 CAN'T GO ON FOR MUCH LONGER. 271 00:15:42,800 --> 00:15:44,767 SOMETHING'S GONNA BREAK. 272 00:15:47,867 --> 00:15:51,800 EITHER MY BODY'S GONNA GIVE OUT 273 00:15:51,800 --> 00:15:55,100 OR MY WHOLE HOME LIFE IS GOING TO FALL APART. 274 00:16:01,733 --> 00:16:03,633 ** 275 00:16:10,300 --> 00:16:13,267 Nicole: I HATE WHAT MY LIFE HAS BECOME. 276 00:16:13,267 --> 00:16:15,333 AND I'M ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE... 277 00:16:15,333 --> 00:16:18,433 BECAUSE ALL I DO IS SIT IN THIS HOUSE ALL DAY. 278 00:16:18,433 --> 00:16:21,100 LA LA LA! 279 00:16:21,100 --> 00:16:24,067 I DON'T LEAVE EXCEPT TO GET FOOD, 280 00:16:24,067 --> 00:16:25,300 BECAUSE WHEN I'M HUNGRY, 281 00:16:25,300 --> 00:16:27,500 THAT'S WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT TO ME. 282 00:16:33,400 --> 00:16:37,600 BUT I CAN BARELY MAKE IT TO THE CAR. 283 00:16:37,600 --> 00:16:39,700 AND THEN I CAN BARELY FIT. 284 00:16:48,700 --> 00:16:50,067 BUT I STILL HAVE TO GO OUT, 285 00:16:50,067 --> 00:16:52,200 BECAUSE IF I DON'T DO IT, 286 00:16:52,200 --> 00:16:55,067 CHARLIE WON'T GET THE RIGHT STUFF. 287 00:16:55,067 --> 00:16:58,533 AND THEN I WON'T BE ABLE TO MAKE WHAT I WANT FOR MY FAMILY. 288 00:16:58,533 --> 00:17:00,533 I'M GONNA MAKE MEAT LOAF FOR DINNER, 289 00:17:00,533 --> 00:17:02,833 SO I DEFINITELY NEED TO GET, LIKE, HAMBURGER, 290 00:17:02,833 --> 00:17:07,067 BUTTER, MASHED POTATOES, SOME MACARONI AND CHEESE. 291 00:17:07,067 --> 00:17:08,633 GOT TO HAVE YOUR POP. 292 00:17:08,633 --> 00:17:10,533 I DEFINITELY HAVE TO HAVE POP. 293 00:17:14,967 --> 00:17:19,500 Nicole: SHOPPING FOR FOOD IS THE ONLY FUN THING I CAN DO. 294 00:17:19,500 --> 00:17:22,500 BUT I CAN'T GET AROUND EASILY. 295 00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:24,933 AND WHEN I GO TO A STORE, 296 00:17:24,933 --> 00:17:26,867 I CAN'T RIDE ONE OF THE ELECTRIC CARTS 297 00:17:26,867 --> 00:17:28,500 BECAUSE I'M TOO BIG. 298 00:17:28,500 --> 00:17:31,600 SO I HAVE TO BE PUSHED AROUND IN MY WHEELCHAIR. 299 00:17:37,733 --> 00:17:41,233 I'LL FLAT-OUT MOVE IT. I DON'T CARE. 300 00:17:41,233 --> 00:17:44,633 I'LL MOVE WHATEVER I GOT TO MOVE. 301 00:17:44,633 --> 00:17:47,833 EVEN THOUGH IT'S VERY DIFFICULT TO GET AROUND, 302 00:17:47,833 --> 00:17:51,633 I TRULY LOVE SHOPPING FOR FOOD. 303 00:17:51,633 --> 00:17:54,933 TO SEE ALL THE SELECTIONS AND OPTIONS 304 00:17:54,933 --> 00:17:57,667 MAKES IT WORTH HOW HARD IT IS. 305 00:17:57,667 --> 00:18:00,633 THAT'S ONE THING THAT BRINGS US TOGETHER, IS OUR LOVE OF... 306 00:18:00,633 --> 00:18:02,600 FOOD, BUT CHIPS, MOST DEFINITELY. 307 00:18:02,600 --> 00:18:03,967 WE'RE CHIP CONNOISSEURS. 308 00:18:03,967 --> 00:18:05,600 OH, YEAH. 309 00:18:05,600 --> 00:18:07,800 BUT IT IS EMBARRASSING WHEN THERE'S MOMENTS 310 00:18:07,800 --> 00:18:11,067 WHERE I CAN'T PASS SOMETHING BECAUSE I'M SO BIG. 311 00:18:13,900 --> 00:18:17,067 WHEN THAT HAPPENS, I FEEL SO ANXIOUS... 312 00:18:17,067 --> 00:18:19,267 BECAUSE I KNOW PEOPLE ARE STARING. 313 00:18:19,267 --> 00:18:22,067 JUST A LITTLE BIT. CHARLIE. 314 00:18:26,100 --> 00:18:28,233 LET'S GET YOU THROUGH HERE, AND I'LL DO THAT. 315 00:18:28,233 --> 00:18:30,667 -YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO -- -I'LL JUST LEAVE THEM THERE. 316 00:18:33,133 --> 00:18:34,633 BUT WHEN THAT HAPPENS, 317 00:18:34,633 --> 00:18:38,567 I START TO FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA PANIC. 318 00:18:38,567 --> 00:18:40,200 AND ALL I WANT IS FOOD. 319 00:18:40,200 --> 00:18:41,900 ALL RIGHT. READY? 320 00:18:41,900 --> 00:18:44,667 WHEW. THAT WAS VERY INTENSE. 321 00:18:44,667 --> 00:18:47,267 BUT I KNOW THE SOONER I GET THE SHOPPING DONE, 322 00:18:47,267 --> 00:18:50,133 THE SOONER I CAN EAT. 323 00:18:50,133 --> 00:18:53,300 THANK YOU. 324 00:18:57,067 --> 00:18:59,567 HERE. 325 00:18:59,567 --> 00:19:02,767 CANDY. MY LOVE. 326 00:19:02,767 --> 00:19:04,200 OH, MY GOSH. SO EXCITED. 327 00:19:04,200 --> 00:19:06,800 ANOTHER FAVORITE PART OF THE ENTIRE TRIP 328 00:19:06,800 --> 00:19:08,833 IS GETTING WHAT I WANT. 329 00:19:08,833 --> 00:19:11,333 THAT'S MY FAVORITE PART. 330 00:19:11,333 --> 00:19:13,200 CHARLIE LOVES FOOD, TOO. 331 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:15,133 AND GROCERY SHOPPING IS THE ONLY TIME 332 00:19:15,133 --> 00:19:17,167 WE GET TO DO SOMETHING TOGETHER. 333 00:19:21,667 --> 00:19:25,067 IT'S KINDA ROMANTIC IN A WAY. 334 00:19:25,067 --> 00:19:26,567 WANT TO TRY? 335 00:19:26,567 --> 00:19:29,467 OH, REALLY? 336 00:19:29,467 --> 00:19:32,300 OKAY? [ LAUGHS ] 337 00:19:32,300 --> 00:19:33,867 LOVE YOU. 338 00:19:35,367 --> 00:19:38,067 BUT AFTER WE SHOP, I CAN'T WAIT TO GET HOME AND EAT. 339 00:19:42,600 --> 00:19:44,967 WHEN I THINK ABOUT WHAT I JUST BOUGHT... 340 00:19:47,433 --> 00:19:50,233 ...I'M LIKE, "I HAVE TO HAVE SOME OF THAT." 341 00:19:50,233 --> 00:19:53,067 HI, BABY. 342 00:19:53,067 --> 00:19:56,300 AND COOKING IS THE ONLY THING I STILL DO ON MY OWN. 343 00:19:58,767 --> 00:20:02,333 BUT I'M NOT ABLE TO STAND IN THE KITCHEN AND DO IT. 344 00:20:02,333 --> 00:20:06,167 AND I'M NOT ABLE TO MOVE AROUND IN MY WHEELCHAIR 345 00:20:06,167 --> 00:20:07,533 IN MY KITCHEN. 346 00:20:07,533 --> 00:20:08,767 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 347 00:20:08,767 --> 00:20:13,400 SO I DO ALL THE FOOD PREPARING FROM THE COUCH 348 00:20:13,400 --> 00:20:16,000 'CAUSE I ABSOLUTELY LOVE TO COOK. 349 00:20:16,000 --> 00:20:18,633 AND I TAKE MY FOOD VERY SERIOUSLY. 350 00:20:21,000 --> 00:20:23,167 AND WHEN I WANT SOMETHING PARTICULAR, 351 00:20:23,167 --> 00:20:26,333 I WON'T LET ANYONE ELSE MAKE IT 352 00:20:26,333 --> 00:20:28,833 BECAUSE IT HAS TO BE DONE EXACTLY RIGHT 353 00:20:28,833 --> 00:20:32,167 SO IT TASTES AS GOOD AS IT SHOULD. 354 00:20:32,167 --> 00:20:35,267 AND I'M NOT LETTING ANYONE MESS IT UP. 355 00:20:35,267 --> 00:20:37,467 ALL RIGHT. IT'S READY FOR THE OVEN. 356 00:20:37,467 --> 00:20:40,000 ALL RIGHT. 357 00:20:42,500 --> 00:20:44,500 WHEN I KNOW THAT THERE'S A MEAL BEING COOKED, 358 00:20:44,500 --> 00:20:46,400 I JUST START GETTING REALLY EXCITED. 359 00:20:46,400 --> 00:20:48,033 I START CRAVING THE FOOD. 360 00:20:48,033 --> 00:20:49,633 I NEED TO KNOW EXACTLY WHAT'S BEING COOKED 361 00:20:49,633 --> 00:20:51,967 SO I PREPARE MENTALLY FOR IT. 362 00:20:51,967 --> 00:20:55,767 AND I JUST START FREAKING OUT. 363 00:20:55,767 --> 00:20:58,967 NICOLE'S BEHAVIOR WITH FOOD IS NOT NORMAL. 364 00:20:58,967 --> 00:21:01,933 IF SHE IS HUNGRY, SHE WANTS FOOD. 365 00:21:01,933 --> 00:21:03,933 SHE WANTS IT NOW. 366 00:21:03,933 --> 00:21:06,733 GIVE ME SOME YUM-YUM. 367 00:21:06,733 --> 00:21:08,733 I WANT SOME NUM-NUM. 368 00:21:08,733 --> 00:21:11,467 BUT WHEN I GIVE HER LARGE PORTIONS, 369 00:21:11,467 --> 00:21:13,400 I KNOW IT'S HURTING HER. 370 00:21:13,400 --> 00:21:16,700 I KNOW IT'S DAMAGING HER BODY. 371 00:21:16,700 --> 00:21:20,133 BUT I SEE THAT SHE'S HAPPY. 372 00:21:20,133 --> 00:21:24,167 AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO MAKE NICOLE HAPPY. 373 00:21:24,167 --> 00:21:26,700 BUT WHO KNOWS HOW MUCH BIGGER SHE COULD GET 374 00:21:26,700 --> 00:21:29,333 BEFORE IT'S TOO MUCH? 375 00:21:31,700 --> 00:21:35,800 Nicole: FOOD IS JUST SIMPLY AMAZING TO ME. 376 00:21:35,800 --> 00:21:38,700 AND IT'S HARD TO STOP EATING. 377 00:21:38,700 --> 00:21:42,267 I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE I'VE HAD ENOUGH FOOD IN ME. 378 00:21:44,533 --> 00:21:47,367 Darlene: I'M DEFINITELY AFRAID FOR NICOLE'S LIFE. 379 00:21:47,367 --> 00:21:49,067 THE DOCTORS TOLD HER, 380 00:21:49,067 --> 00:21:51,267 "TIME YOU'RE 25, YOU'LL BE IN A WHEELCHAIR. 381 00:21:51,267 --> 00:21:53,267 TIME YOU'RE 30, YOU'LL BE DEAD." 382 00:21:59,867 --> 00:22:01,733 Jim: I'M VERY WORRIED THAT OUR GRANDCHILDREN 383 00:22:01,733 --> 00:22:03,200 ARE GONNA GROW UP WITHOUT A MOTHER, 384 00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:06,233 BECAUSE I'M AFRAID SHE'S GONNA DIE. 385 00:22:06,233 --> 00:22:08,067 I'M AFRAID FOR HER LIFE. 386 00:22:11,267 --> 00:22:15,467 Nicole: FOOD IS SOMETHING THAT MY BODY DEPENDS ON TO SURVIVE. 387 00:22:15,467 --> 00:22:18,567 SO IT'S LIKE PLAYING RUSSIAN ROULETTE WITH MY LIFE. 388 00:22:21,100 --> 00:22:24,067 AND I DON'T WANT MY CHILDREN TO GROW UP WITHOUT A MOM. 389 00:22:27,567 --> 00:22:30,533 AND I KNOW THAT IF I DON'T CHANGE, 390 00:22:30,533 --> 00:22:32,567 I'M NOT GONNA BE HERE MUCH LONGER. 391 00:22:35,400 --> 00:22:37,800 ** 392 00:22:42,567 --> 00:22:46,067 CHARLIE, CAN YOU HELP ME? 393 00:22:46,067 --> 00:22:48,800 I KNOW I NEED HELP NOW. 394 00:22:48,800 --> 00:22:53,833 AND DR. NOWZARADAN MAY BE THE LAST CHANCE I HAVE TO GET IT. 395 00:22:53,833 --> 00:22:56,833 SO I'VE MADE AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE HIM. 396 00:22:56,833 --> 00:22:58,867 AND MY FAMILY'S PACKING EVERYTHING UP 397 00:22:58,867 --> 00:23:00,867 SO WE CAN MOVE TO HOUSTON 398 00:23:00,867 --> 00:23:03,667 SO I CAN TRY AND JOIN HIS PROGRAM. 399 00:23:03,667 --> 00:23:05,767 I'M PUTTING MY LIFE ON THE LINE 400 00:23:05,767 --> 00:23:08,633 HOPING THAT I GET ACCEPTED BY HIM. 401 00:23:08,633 --> 00:23:12,133 AND IT'S THE BIGGEST RISK I'VE EVER TAKEN. 402 00:23:12,133 --> 00:23:16,567 BUT I HAVE NO OTHER OPTIONS. 403 00:23:16,567 --> 00:23:21,733 BUT MY PARENTS ARE KIND OF STRESSED OUT ABOUT MOVING. 404 00:23:21,733 --> 00:23:25,367 AND I KNOW THIS IS THE LAST THING THEY WANT TO DO. 405 00:23:25,367 --> 00:23:27,867 WATCH OUT, JADEN! 406 00:23:31,833 --> 00:23:33,133 IF Y'ALL CAN'T HELP MOVE, 407 00:23:33,133 --> 00:23:35,900 COULD YOU PLEASE AT LEAST WATCH THE KIDS?! 408 00:23:44,267 --> 00:23:45,533 I REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO. 409 00:23:45,533 --> 00:23:47,767 I WOULDN'T GO IF IT WASN'T FOR MY DAUGHTER. 410 00:23:47,767 --> 00:23:50,700 NICOLE'S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME. 411 00:23:50,700 --> 00:23:53,067 BUT THIS IS A LIFESAVING THING FOR MY DAUGHTER, 412 00:23:53,067 --> 00:23:55,600 AND I HAVE TO DO IT. 413 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:04,067 Nicole: THIS IS JUST A LOT OF PRESSURE. 414 00:24:04,067 --> 00:24:05,333 BUT ALL THE SCREAMING 415 00:24:05,333 --> 00:24:08,867 AND EVERYONE BEING UPSET REALLY STRESSES ME OUT. 416 00:24:08,867 --> 00:24:11,067 BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO GET HELP. 417 00:24:11,067 --> 00:24:15,933 I GOT MY KIDS AND MYSELF, AND THAT'S ALL I EVEN CARE ABOUT. 418 00:24:15,933 --> 00:24:18,533 YOU CAN GO ABOUT YOUR OWN WAY. THIS IS FOR ME. 419 00:24:18,533 --> 00:24:21,100 THIS IS A NEW BEGINNING FOR ME. 420 00:24:21,100 --> 00:24:24,167 AND I DON'T CARE WHAT'S LEFT BEHIND. 421 00:24:24,167 --> 00:24:26,933 YOU ARE EITHER WITH ME OR YOU'RE WITHOUT ME. 422 00:24:26,933 --> 00:24:29,600 I AM GOING TO TEXAS. 423 00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:31,767 AND I AM GONNA SEE DR. NOW, 424 00:24:31,767 --> 00:24:33,767 AND I'M GONNA COMPLY WITH WHAT HE SAYS, 425 00:24:33,767 --> 00:24:35,933 AND I'M GONNA GET THIS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 426 00:24:35,933 --> 00:24:39,067 AND I'M GONNA BE ONE OF THE MOST SUCCESSFUL PATIENTS HE'S HAD. 427 00:24:41,433 --> 00:24:43,067 OH, WEIRD. 428 00:24:43,067 --> 00:24:46,167 I HAVE TO DO THIS... 429 00:24:46,167 --> 00:24:48,633 BECAUSE THIS IS MY LAST AND ONLY CHANCE 430 00:24:48,633 --> 00:24:52,300 TO SAVE MY LIFE AND BE THERE FOR MY KIDS. 431 00:24:55,733 --> 00:24:59,333 AND EITHER MY FAMILY CAN HELP ME 432 00:24:59,333 --> 00:25:01,533 OR THEY CAN GET OUT OF MY WAY. 433 00:25:08,100 --> 00:25:12,300 WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR ABOUT 10 HOURS NOW. 434 00:25:12,300 --> 00:25:14,900 AND WE'RE GONNA TRY TO MAKE IT TO ALABAMA TODAY, 435 00:25:14,900 --> 00:25:18,467 WHICH IS ABOUT 7, 7.5-HOUR DRIVE. 436 00:25:18,467 --> 00:25:22,500 BUT I'M WORRIED THAT HAVING TO SIT WITH MY LEGS ALL CRAMPED UP, 437 00:25:22,500 --> 00:25:25,500 IF MY KNEES ARE GONNA BE ABLE TO TAKE IT. 438 00:25:25,500 --> 00:25:27,067 AND IT'S HECTIC IN HERE 439 00:25:27,067 --> 00:25:30,367 BECAUSE EVERYTHING'S PILED ON TOP OF EACH OTHER -- 440 00:25:30,367 --> 00:25:34,433 OUR TWO KIDS, OUR TWO CATS, MY PARENTS' TWO CATS. 441 00:25:34,433 --> 00:25:37,900 PLUS, OUR DOG IS ON THIS TRIP WITH US. 442 00:25:37,900 --> 00:25:42,833 I JUST HOPE THE TRIP GOES EASY, BECAUSE THIS IS A LONG HAUL. 443 00:25:43,933 --> 00:25:45,900 [ CHILD HOLLERS ] 444 00:25:47,633 --> 00:25:49,733 DO YOU WANT TO DRIVE? 445 00:25:49,733 --> 00:25:51,733 IT'S HOT IN HERE, AND I'M GETTING IRRITATED. 446 00:25:51,733 --> 00:25:53,600 WELL, SHUT UP. 447 00:25:56,233 --> 00:25:59,133 I'M REALLY STRESSED OUT AND UPSET RIGHT NOW, 448 00:25:59,133 --> 00:26:01,533 SO ALL I WANT TO DO IS EAT. 449 00:26:04,633 --> 00:26:05,633 WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO GET THE KIDS? 450 00:26:05,633 --> 00:26:07,600 -SOME NUGGETS? -I DON'T KNOW. 451 00:26:07,600 --> 00:26:09,500 I'M JUST -- I'M HOT, CHARLIE. 452 00:26:09,500 --> 00:26:12,067 THIS... 453 00:26:12,067 --> 00:26:14,600 I NEED, UM, TWO DOUBLE-PATTY BURGERS 454 00:26:14,600 --> 00:26:16,600 WITH TWO FRIES AND A LARGE COKE. 455 00:26:19,267 --> 00:26:21,500 THANK YOU. 456 00:26:26,533 --> 00:26:28,467 YES. 457 00:26:28,467 --> 00:26:31,067 WHEN I GET STRESSED LIKE THIS AND I WANT TO EAT, 458 00:26:31,067 --> 00:26:33,167 I START TO THINK ABOUT ALL THE THINGS I'M CRAVING. 459 00:26:33,167 --> 00:26:36,567 AND ONE PLACE AIN'T GONNA HAVE EVERYTHING I WANT. 460 00:26:36,567 --> 00:26:39,400 I JUST WANT THE OVEN-ROASTED CHICKEN, 461 00:26:39,400 --> 00:26:43,233 UM, ON THAT ONE KIND OF BREAD -- 462 00:26:43,233 --> 00:26:45,167 ITALIAN HERB AND CHEESE. 463 00:26:45,167 --> 00:26:48,167 FOOT-LONG. 464 00:26:48,167 --> 00:26:52,800 I CAN'T HELP BUT GIVE IN TO MY CRAVINGS AND EAT EVERYTHING. 465 00:26:52,800 --> 00:26:54,667 THERE'S NOTHING LIKE UNWRAPPING A BURGER, 466 00:26:54,667 --> 00:26:57,400 AND YOU GET THAT HOT WRAPPER CHEESE. 467 00:26:57,400 --> 00:27:01,800 BURGER'S JUST FRESH AND JUST SO IRRESISTIBLE. 468 00:27:01,800 --> 00:27:04,267 THE CATS ARE DYING, CHARLIE. 469 00:27:04,267 --> 00:27:07,533 THEY NEED TO BE IN AIR-CONDITIONING. 470 00:27:07,533 --> 00:27:09,933 EATING WHAT I WANT IS THE ONLY THING 471 00:27:09,933 --> 00:27:12,467 THAT COULD STOP THE PANIC ATTACKS. 472 00:27:12,467 --> 00:27:16,400 AND IF I CAN'T GET THAT, I JUST GET ANGRIER. 473 00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:19,467 I DON'T LIKE IT, BUT I CAN'T HELP IT. 474 00:27:19,467 --> 00:27:21,167 I THINK THE KIDS NEED THEIR ACTS CHANGED. 475 00:27:21,167 --> 00:27:23,700 I DON'T KNOW. 476 00:27:27,533 --> 00:27:29,400 COME ON, CHARLIE. 477 00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:31,467 -WHAT? -THEY'RE MISERABLE, MAN. 478 00:27:31,467 --> 00:27:35,767 I UNDERSTAND THAT! LET'S GO! 479 00:27:35,767 --> 00:27:37,933 QUIT, DUDE. 480 00:27:37,933 --> 00:27:41,133 I JUST WANT TO GET ON THE ROAD AND GET TO HOUSTON. 481 00:27:45,700 --> 00:27:48,467 TODAY, I'VE BEEN JUST ABSOLUTELY MISERABLE 482 00:27:48,467 --> 00:27:52,200 IN THE FRONT SEAT OF THIS VEHICLE. 483 00:27:52,200 --> 00:27:54,933 WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR ABOUT 18 HOURS, 484 00:27:54,933 --> 00:27:57,267 AND WE STILL HAVEN'T MADE IT TO ALABAMA, 485 00:27:57,267 --> 00:28:01,267 WHERE WE PLAN TO STOP FOR THE NIGHT. 486 00:28:01,267 --> 00:28:04,367 BUT I CAN'T GO MUCH FURTHER. 487 00:28:04,367 --> 00:28:07,800 I NEED A BED, AND I HAVE TO SLEEP. 488 00:28:07,800 --> 00:28:10,067 [ GROANS ] 489 00:28:10,067 --> 00:28:11,767 OH, MY KNEES. 490 00:28:11,767 --> 00:28:14,300 Charlie: BE CAREFUL, BABE. 491 00:28:17,933 --> 00:28:20,300 GOT A BIG BATHTUB RIGHT HERE, HUH? 492 00:28:20,300 --> 00:28:21,933 GIVE THE KIDS A BATH? 493 00:28:21,933 --> 00:28:23,800 [ GASPING ] 494 00:28:23,800 --> 00:28:25,467 -YOU ALL RIGHT? -NO. 495 00:28:25,467 --> 00:28:29,200 PLEASE. 496 00:28:31,533 --> 00:28:35,167 -PLEASE. ALL RIGHT. -ONE, TWO, THREE. 497 00:28:35,167 --> 00:28:36,933 [ GRUNTS ] 498 00:28:36,933 --> 00:28:39,167 THE WHOLE BED [BLEEP] SLID OUT ON ME. 499 00:28:39,167 --> 00:28:41,767 Charlie: OKAY, UM... IT'S ON WHEELS. 500 00:28:41,767 --> 00:28:44,733 WHAT THE [BLEEP] WE C-- IT -- 501 00:28:44,733 --> 00:28:48,667 I MEAN, WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT? [ SOBS ] 502 00:28:48,667 --> 00:28:52,400 NO! JUST [BLEEP] SHUT UP, MOM! 503 00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:54,867 [ BREATHING RAPIDLY ] 504 00:28:56,400 --> 00:28:58,233 CHARLIE, I CAN'T SLEEP ON THIS BED. 505 00:28:58,233 --> 00:29:00,733 YOU DIDN'T WANT TO PAY THE OTHER PRICE FOR THE OTHER ROOM, SO... 506 00:29:00,733 --> 00:29:02,533 WELL, THEY SAID IT WAS UPSTAIRS. 507 00:29:02,533 --> 00:29:04,133 [BLEEP] IDIOT. 508 00:29:04,133 --> 00:29:06,667 I CAN'T GET ON IT, CHARLIE. I CAN'T. 509 00:29:06,667 --> 00:29:09,333 JUST GIVE ME THE CHAIR OVER THERE. 510 00:29:19,667 --> 00:29:22,200 I CAN'T DO THIS. 511 00:29:22,200 --> 00:29:26,467 [ SOBBING ] 512 00:29:26,467 --> 00:29:30,433 MY BACK HURTS! I CAN'T HARDLY BREATHE! 513 00:29:33,067 --> 00:29:35,067 CHARLIE, YOU KNOW WHAT? IF YOU AREN'T GONNA 514 00:29:35,067 --> 00:29:36,567 BE SUPPORTIVE, YOU CAN [BLEEP] LEAVE! 515 00:29:36,567 --> 00:29:38,300 I AM BEING SUPPORTIVE! THAT'S WHY I'M HERE! 516 00:29:38,300 --> 00:29:40,367 IT'S STUPID WOOD IN HERE. IT'S STUPID. 517 00:29:40,367 --> 00:29:42,533 WHY WOULD THEY PUT WOOD ON A FLOOR IN A HOTEL? 518 00:29:42,533 --> 00:29:44,167 TO MAKE IT LOOK NICE? 519 00:29:44,167 --> 00:29:45,767 EVERY DAMN THING I SAY, 520 00:29:45,767 --> 00:29:47,867 YOU CONTRADICT AND TALK [BLEEP] YOU LITTLE [BLEEP] 521 00:29:47,867 --> 00:29:50,700 I ABOUT HIT THE FLOOR, AND I HAD TO HOLD MY BODY WEIGHT UP 522 00:29:50,700 --> 00:29:53,133 BECAUSE HE WASN'T IN HERE AND JUST LALLYGAGGED. 523 00:29:53,133 --> 00:29:56,067 LALLYGAG? I WAS GETTING THE BAGS AND STUFF! 524 00:29:56,067 --> 00:29:58,133 Jim: WELL, I SAY YOU TRY IT AGAIN, NIKKI, BEFORE YOU -- 525 00:29:58,133 --> 00:30:01,700 OKAY, LET'S JUST TRY IT AGAIN! YOU BUNCH OF BASTARDS! 526 00:30:06,700 --> 00:30:09,467 [ JADEN CRYING ] 527 00:30:13,500 --> 00:30:16,867 [ GROANING ] 528 00:30:16,867 --> 00:30:19,933 WE'LL TAKE THE MATTRESS AND THE BOX SPRING OFF. 529 00:30:19,933 --> 00:30:21,967 WE'RE GONNA PUT THAT DOWN. 530 00:30:30,767 --> 00:30:33,300 OH, MY GOD. 531 00:30:36,100 --> 00:30:39,500 Nicole: THIS IS JUST TOO MUCH FOR ME. 532 00:30:39,500 --> 00:30:42,867 I SHOULD'VE NEVER LEFT AND TRIED TO DO THIS. 533 00:30:46,967 --> 00:30:48,867 ** 534 00:30:52,933 --> 00:30:55,900 CHARLIE. COME ON, NOW, WE GOT TO GET GOING. 535 00:30:55,900 --> 00:30:57,233 WE GOT A LONG TRIP. 536 00:30:57,233 --> 00:30:58,933 I KNOW. 537 00:30:58,933 --> 00:31:01,167 I'LL DO ONE LAST LOOK OVER THE ROOM, AND... 538 00:31:01,167 --> 00:31:05,133 -OKAY. -...GET IN THE TRUCK. 539 00:31:05,133 --> 00:31:07,600 OHH. 540 00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:10,900 Nicole: LAST NIGHT WAS MISERABLE. 541 00:31:10,900 --> 00:31:12,400 AND I KNOW I OVERREACTED. 542 00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:15,867 BUT WHEN THE BED SLIPPED, IT REALLY SCARED ME. 543 00:31:15,867 --> 00:31:17,733 BECAUSE IF I HAD FALLEN, 544 00:31:17,733 --> 00:31:21,500 I KNOW I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GET BACK UP. 545 00:31:21,500 --> 00:31:25,167 SO I HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF WHY I'M DOING THIS. 546 00:31:27,600 --> 00:31:29,233 I'M 23 YEARS OLD, 547 00:31:29,233 --> 00:31:31,867 AND THERE IS SO MUCH I'VE NEVER SEEN 548 00:31:31,867 --> 00:31:35,067 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN TRAPPED IN A ROOM. 549 00:31:35,067 --> 00:31:37,067 OH, MY GOD. THAT'S GORGEOUS. 550 00:31:37,067 --> 00:31:39,100 LOOK AT THAT. THE WATER. 551 00:31:39,100 --> 00:31:42,833 OH, MY GOD. IT'S BEAUTIFUL. 552 00:31:42,833 --> 00:31:44,833 MY WEIGHT'S MADE ME A PRISONER. 553 00:31:44,833 --> 00:31:47,800 AND THERE IS SO MUCH LIFE I'M MISSING. 554 00:31:47,800 --> 00:31:50,767 BUT AS DESPERATELY AS I WANT TO CHANGE, 555 00:31:50,767 --> 00:31:54,300 WHEN I GET STRESSED OUT, I JUST WANT TO EAT. 556 00:31:57,267 --> 00:32:00,100 -WHOA! -WHAT? 557 00:32:00,100 --> 00:32:03,700 THAT CAR JUST ABOUT CUT US OFF. 558 00:32:03,700 --> 00:32:06,800 WHY ARE WE GOING 90?! 559 00:32:06,800 --> 00:32:08,667 I'M TRYING TO CATCH UP WITH YOUR DAD. 560 00:32:08,667 --> 00:32:12,300 I'M GONNA PASS THIS TRUCK, GET OVER. 561 00:32:12,300 --> 00:32:15,567 DON'T GET TOO CLOSE TO THAT WALL, BUD! 562 00:32:15,567 --> 00:32:17,933 SLOW DOWN, PLEASE! I WISH YOU'D PUT THAT CIGAR OUT! 563 00:32:17,933 --> 00:32:20,467 PLEASE! PLEASE! 564 00:32:20,467 --> 00:32:22,500 -IT'S ALL RIGHT, NIKKI. -NO. 565 00:32:24,767 --> 00:32:27,267 OH, GOD. 566 00:32:27,267 --> 00:32:29,967 WHEN I'M UNCOMFORTABLE OR HAVE ANXIETY, 567 00:32:29,967 --> 00:32:34,500 FOOD'S, LIKE, A GATEWAY TO HAPPINESS. 568 00:32:40,967 --> 00:32:43,567 YOU DON'T LISTEN, DUDE, AT ALL. 569 00:32:43,567 --> 00:32:48,367 I'M NOT LIGHTING IT YET. I WAS HOLDING IT. 570 00:32:48,367 --> 00:32:50,967 -WHY DO YOU ACT LIKE THAT? -ACT LIKE WHAT, DUDE? 571 00:32:50,967 --> 00:32:53,200 YOU'RE RUNNING YOUR MOUTH, MAN. 572 00:33:11,433 --> 00:33:15,300 WE'VE BEEN DRIVING FOR ALMOST TWO DAYS STRAIGHT. 573 00:33:15,300 --> 00:33:16,767 ENTERING TEXAS. 574 00:33:16,767 --> 00:33:19,933 WE'RE ENTERING TEXAS RIGHT NOW. 575 00:33:19,933 --> 00:33:22,433 OH, WOW. 576 00:33:22,433 --> 00:33:25,067 THANK GOD. 577 00:33:25,067 --> 00:33:27,933 WE ONLY HAVE ANOTHER DAY OF DRIVING TO GO. 578 00:33:27,933 --> 00:33:31,067 AND I'M MISERABLE RIGHT NOW. 579 00:33:31,067 --> 00:33:32,333 FINALLY, THE HOTEL. 580 00:33:32,333 --> 00:33:34,833 OH. 581 00:33:34,833 --> 00:33:37,833 OOH. 582 00:33:37,833 --> 00:33:41,067 THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS I'VE EVER DONE. 583 00:33:41,067 --> 00:33:43,767 AND I JUST HOPE IT'S WORTH IT. 584 00:33:43,767 --> 00:33:45,400 'CAUSE THERE'S SO MANY THINGS 585 00:33:45,400 --> 00:33:47,333 THAT ARE SO UNCERTAIN 586 00:33:47,333 --> 00:33:49,800 ABOUT WHEN I GET TO HOUSTON. 587 00:33:51,333 --> 00:33:55,400 OH, YOU KNOW I'M GONNA BE BACK DOWN HERE, RIGHT? 588 00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:56,700 YES. 589 00:33:56,700 --> 00:33:58,600 I JUST SEEN THEIR CANDY. 590 00:33:58,600 --> 00:34:00,300 MY ENTIRE FAMILY, 591 00:34:00,300 --> 00:34:02,767 WE JUST PICKED UP OUR LIFE 592 00:34:02,767 --> 00:34:04,767 AND BROUGHT IT WITH US. 593 00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:13,067 AND I'M WORRIED BECAUSE WE DON'T HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE. 594 00:34:13,067 --> 00:34:14,633 ON TOP OF THAT, CHARLIE NEEDS 595 00:34:14,633 --> 00:34:16,667 TO FIND A JOB AS SOON AS POSSIBLE 596 00:34:16,667 --> 00:34:21,133 SO WE CAN GET A PROPER ROOF OVER THE KIDS' HEADS. 597 00:34:21,133 --> 00:34:23,633 Charlie: THIS TRIP WAS LONG, FRUSTRATING. 598 00:34:23,633 --> 00:34:28,333 BUT IT'S GONNA BE WORTH IT FOR NICOLE AND MY FAMILY. 599 00:34:28,333 --> 00:34:31,733 SHE'S VERY DETERMINED TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF 600 00:34:31,733 --> 00:34:35,667 SO SHE CAN BE THE MOTHER THAT SHE WANTS TO BE. 601 00:34:35,667 --> 00:34:36,967 Nicole: IF I DON'T CHANGE, 602 00:34:36,967 --> 00:34:40,167 MY KIDS ARE EITHER GOING TO RELIVE MY CHILDHOOD 603 00:34:40,167 --> 00:34:42,267 OR WATCH ME DIE. 604 00:34:42,267 --> 00:34:45,233 AND I WILL NOT LET MY KIDS BURY ME IN THEIR DIAPERS. 605 00:34:45,233 --> 00:34:47,733 I REFUSE TO. 606 00:34:48,767 --> 00:34:51,067 ** 607 00:34:56,267 --> 00:34:58,800 IT'S DAY THREE ON THE ROAD. 608 00:34:58,800 --> 00:35:01,267 AND WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON. 609 00:35:03,367 --> 00:35:06,600 WE'RE HERE. 610 00:35:06,600 --> 00:35:11,900 BUT AS GLAD AS I AM TO BE HERE, I'M STILL REALLY NERVOUS 611 00:35:11,900 --> 00:35:13,833 BECAUSE I KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO RIDE 612 00:35:13,833 --> 00:35:16,367 ON WHAT THE DOCTOR'S GONNA TELL ME. 613 00:35:16,367 --> 00:35:18,467 WE'RE NOT GONNA GET IN HERE. 614 00:35:18,467 --> 00:35:20,233 ALL RIGHT. LET ME TURN YOU AROUND. 615 00:35:20,233 --> 00:35:21,767 -OW! -SORRY. 616 00:35:21,767 --> 00:35:24,067 GOD! [BLEEP] IDIOT. 617 00:35:27,300 --> 00:35:29,333 NICOLE LEWIS? 618 00:35:29,333 --> 00:35:31,600 BUT I'M SCARED THERE'S GONNA BE SOME ISSUE 619 00:35:31,600 --> 00:35:34,200 THAT'LL MEAN HE CAN'T HELP ME 620 00:35:34,200 --> 00:35:38,067 AND THAT I'M TOO FAR GONE AT THIS POINT. 621 00:35:44,567 --> 00:35:47,100 Woman: 684. 622 00:35:51,767 --> 00:35:55,067 I'M VERY SHOCKED. 623 00:35:55,067 --> 00:35:56,633 684 IS, LIKE, 624 00:35:56,633 --> 00:36:00,633 THREE TIMES THE NORMAL BODY WEIGHT. 625 00:36:00,633 --> 00:36:03,667 WHEN I SAW THE NUMBER, IT MADE ME FEEL SCARED... 626 00:36:03,667 --> 00:36:07,800 BECAUSE EVERY TIME I THINK OF MY WEIGHT 627 00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:09,333 AND MY KIDS AT THE SAME TIME, 628 00:36:09,333 --> 00:36:12,200 I JUST ALWAYS THINK OF MYSELF LAYING IN A CASKET. 629 00:36:17,200 --> 00:36:18,967 -HELLO. -HELLO. -HELLO. 630 00:36:18,967 --> 00:36:21,067 -I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 631 00:36:21,067 --> 00:36:23,067 -I'M NICOLE. -YOU'RE NICOLE. 632 00:36:23,067 --> 00:36:26,800 -HEY. I'M CHARLIE. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 633 00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:29,633 ALL RIGHT, SO, YOU'RE 23 YEARS OLD, 634 00:36:29,633 --> 00:36:32,067 AND YOU ARE 684 POUNDS? 635 00:36:32,067 --> 00:36:33,333 YES. 636 00:36:33,333 --> 00:36:36,400 SO, WHAT DOES YOUR EATING HABIT LOOK LIKE? 637 00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:37,867 IT'S NOT VERY GOOD. 638 00:36:37,867 --> 00:36:40,100 MY FAMILY HAS A FAST-FOOD HABIT. 639 00:36:40,100 --> 00:36:41,433 I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE 640 00:36:41,433 --> 00:36:44,367 'CAUSE I CAN'T GET UP AND STAND AND COOK FOR MYSELF, 641 00:36:44,367 --> 00:36:46,600 SO I HAVE TO EAT WHAT'S BROUGHT TO ME. 642 00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:48,767 SO WHO BRINGS YOU THE FOOD? 643 00:36:48,767 --> 00:36:50,800 MY BOYFRIEND AND MY MOM. 644 00:36:50,800 --> 00:36:52,300 WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT? 645 00:36:52,300 --> 00:36:54,267 IF SHE WANTS IT, SHE'LL THROW A FIT 646 00:36:54,267 --> 00:36:56,133 IF I DON'T GET IT FOR HER. 647 00:36:56,133 --> 00:36:58,400 SO, NICOLE, LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT. 648 00:36:58,400 --> 00:37:00,400 YOU DON'T WANT TO EAT THE BAD FOOD, 649 00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:03,633 BUT YOU HAVE TO BECAUSE YOUR FAMILY MAKES YOU? 650 00:37:03,633 --> 00:37:08,400 AND YOU BRING THE BAD FOOD BECAUSE SHE WILL GET UPSET? 651 00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:12,767 SO I THINK I'M PICKING UP ON SOME OF THE PROBLEM. 652 00:37:12,767 --> 00:37:15,300 NICOLE IS ALMOST 700 POUNDS, 653 00:37:15,300 --> 00:37:18,667 AND THE DYNAMIC SHE HAS AT HOME LOOKS TERRIBLE. 654 00:37:18,667 --> 00:37:21,767 SHE'S NOT TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER OWN BEHAVIOR. 655 00:37:21,767 --> 00:37:24,100 HER BOYFRIEND IS ENABLING HER 656 00:37:24,100 --> 00:37:26,933 AND MAY NOT EVEN WANT HER TO LOSE WEIGHT. 657 00:37:26,933 --> 00:37:31,500 SO WE HAVE A VERY DIFFICULT SITUATION TO ADDRESS HERE. 658 00:37:31,500 --> 00:37:35,633 YOU ARE 684 POUNDS, AND YOU ARE 23. 659 00:37:35,633 --> 00:37:38,867 YOU KEEP IT UP, DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO BE 30? 660 00:37:38,867 --> 00:37:40,733 I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT NEXT YEAR. 661 00:37:40,733 --> 00:37:42,933 I NEED TO DO SOMETHING NOW ABOUT IT. 662 00:37:42,933 --> 00:37:46,333 WHEN I WALK OUT THE DOOR, I'M OVER IN YOUR HANDS. 663 00:37:46,333 --> 00:37:50,133 I'M READY TO GET HEALTHY FOR MY CHILDREN. 664 00:37:50,133 --> 00:37:51,167 OKAY. 665 00:37:51,167 --> 00:37:53,333 THE EATING HABIT NEEDS TO BE CORRECTED 666 00:37:53,333 --> 00:37:57,667 BEFORE WE GET TO THE POINT THAT WE CAN OFFER YOU SURGERY. 667 00:37:57,667 --> 00:38:01,233 SO I WANT YOU TO READ THIS MATERIAL EVERY DAY, 668 00:38:01,233 --> 00:38:02,800 THAT I'M GONNA GIVE YOU. 669 00:38:02,800 --> 00:38:05,133 AND THIS IS FOOD TO AVOID. 670 00:38:05,133 --> 00:38:07,733 THIS IS NOT YOUR GROCERY LIST. 671 00:38:07,733 --> 00:38:08,733 OKAY. 672 00:38:08,733 --> 00:38:10,533 CUT ALL CARBS OUT OF YOUR DIET. 673 00:38:10,533 --> 00:38:12,333 EAT ONLY THREE TIMES A DAY. 674 00:38:12,333 --> 00:38:14,600 NO SNACKING BETWEEN THE MEALS. 675 00:38:14,600 --> 00:38:18,300 SO, YOU READ THAT EVERY DAY AND POLISH UP YOUR EATING HABIT. 676 00:38:18,300 --> 00:38:22,567 AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE 30 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH, OKAY? 677 00:38:22,567 --> 00:38:24,200 IF YOU FOLLOW THIS, 678 00:38:24,200 --> 00:38:26,633 WE'RE GONNA SEE IF WE CAN GET YOU TO THE POINT 679 00:38:26,633 --> 00:38:30,267 THAT YOU'RE GONNA BE APPROPRIATE FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 680 00:38:30,267 --> 00:38:31,667 -ALL RIGHT. -OKAY? 681 00:38:31,667 --> 00:38:33,167 SO, ARE YOU GONNA BE 682 00:38:33,167 --> 00:38:36,967 SUPPORTING HER CHANGE OF EATING HABIT? 683 00:38:36,967 --> 00:38:40,067 -100%. -OKAY. 684 00:38:40,067 --> 00:38:42,067 -NICE TO SEE YOU. -NICE TO SEE YOU. 685 00:38:42,067 --> 00:38:44,700 -NICE TO SEE YOU. -NICE TO SEE YOU. 686 00:38:49,067 --> 00:38:51,333 ARE YOU READY TO DO THIS WITH ME? 687 00:38:51,333 --> 00:38:54,733 -OF COURSE. -ALL RIGHT. 688 00:38:54,733 --> 00:38:56,800 Nicole: I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE TOUGH. 689 00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:58,467 AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW, 690 00:38:58,467 --> 00:39:02,400 HEARING EVERYTHING THE DOCTOR SAID. 691 00:39:02,400 --> 00:39:04,167 Charlie: I WAS LOOKING ON THAT PAPER, 692 00:39:04,167 --> 00:39:07,767 AND A LOT OF THE FOODS THERE THAT I LIKE TO EAT. 693 00:39:07,767 --> 00:39:10,133 SO IT'LL BE A CHALLENGE. 694 00:39:10,133 --> 00:39:13,300 BUT I THINK WE CAN DO IT. 695 00:39:13,300 --> 00:39:16,633 Nicole: 30 POUNDS IS A LOT OF WEIGHT. 696 00:39:16,633 --> 00:39:18,133 AND IN THE PAST, 697 00:39:18,133 --> 00:39:22,733 I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO COMPLETE DIETS. 698 00:39:22,733 --> 00:39:25,333 SO I'M GONNA WORK HARD. BUT I'M SCARED. 699 00:39:25,333 --> 00:39:27,967 BECAUSE WHAT IF I CAN'T DO IT? 700 00:39:27,967 --> 00:39:30,167 WHAT IF IT'S TOO HARD AND I FAIL? 701 00:39:32,800 --> 00:39:35,933 AND I DON'T WANT TO LET MY KIDS DOWN. 702 00:39:41,367 --> 00:39:43,367 ** 703 00:39:55,833 --> 00:39:57,400 Nicole: MY FAMILY AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE 704 00:39:57,400 --> 00:39:59,333 TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE YET, 705 00:39:59,333 --> 00:40:02,467 SO WE'VE BEEN STAYING IN A HOTEL. 706 00:40:02,467 --> 00:40:05,400 BUT RIGHT NOW, I'VE JUST BEEN TRYING TO STAY ACTIVE 707 00:40:05,400 --> 00:40:10,833 AND DO AS MUCH AS I CAN TO MAKE THE PROGRESS THE DOCTOR WANTS. 708 00:40:10,833 --> 00:40:12,733 IT'S STRESSFUL TO NOT BE IN A HOUSE YET 709 00:40:12,733 --> 00:40:16,933 BECAUSE WE CAN'T AFFORD TO STAY IN HOTELS TOO MUCH LONGER. 710 00:40:16,933 --> 00:40:19,400 BUT ONE THING THAT'S BEEN NICE ABOUT STAYING HERE 711 00:40:19,400 --> 00:40:20,700 HAS BEEN THE POOL 712 00:40:20,700 --> 00:40:25,367 BECAUSE IT'S SO MUCH EASIER TO EXERCISE IN THE WATER. 713 00:40:25,367 --> 00:40:27,033 YOU'RE ONLY GIVEN ONE LIFE. 714 00:40:27,033 --> 00:40:29,900 AND I HAVEN'T EVEN BEGUN TO LIVE A LIFE YET. 715 00:40:29,900 --> 00:40:32,067 SO I'M GONNA DO MY ABSOLUTE HARDEST 716 00:40:32,067 --> 00:40:34,767 TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND FEEL HAPPY FOR ONCE. 717 00:40:34,767 --> 00:40:36,500 HEY, HEY, GOOD LOOKIN'. 718 00:40:36,500 --> 00:40:38,200 Nicole: THERE'S MY HANDSOME MAN. 719 00:40:38,200 --> 00:40:41,133 -WHAT'S UP? -[ LAUGHS ] 720 00:40:41,133 --> 00:40:45,067 -HOW WAS YOUR WORKOUT? -IT'S REALLY GOOD. 721 00:40:45,067 --> 00:40:47,167 RIGHT NOW I'M WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN 722 00:40:47,167 --> 00:40:50,200 TO MAKE THE PROGRESS I NEED. 723 00:40:50,200 --> 00:40:53,267 BUT I'M STILL STRUGGLING AT TIMES. 724 00:40:53,267 --> 00:40:54,967 AND THE TEMPTATION'S THE WORST 725 00:40:54,967 --> 00:40:58,367 WHEN I GET STRESSED OUT ABOUT WHERE WE'RE LIVING. 726 00:40:58,367 --> 00:41:00,500 BUT I JUST REALLY HOPE WE FIND A PLACE SOON. 727 00:41:00,500 --> 00:41:03,833 BECAUSE WE CAN'T AFFORD TO KEEP LIVING IN HOTELS. 728 00:41:09,900 --> 00:41:11,600 Charlie: WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING UP? 729 00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:13,100 THIS APARTMENT. 730 00:41:13,100 --> 00:41:15,067 HOW MUCH IS THAT PLACE? 731 00:41:15,067 --> 00:41:18,300 $750 FOR A TWO-BEDROOM. 732 00:41:18,300 --> 00:41:20,667 $850 FOR A THREE-BEDROOM. 733 00:41:20,667 --> 00:41:23,933 IT'S RIDICULOUS. I PAID $750 FOR A HOUSE. 734 00:41:23,933 --> 00:41:26,633 BUT THAT'S OHIO. THIS IS TEXAS, HONEY. 735 00:41:26,633 --> 00:41:28,367 Jim: YEAH. GIVE ALL THAT UP FOR THIS. 736 00:41:28,367 --> 00:41:32,067 HOPE EVERYTHING GOES GOOD NOW. 737 00:41:32,067 --> 00:41:33,800 Nicole: I'M GETTING REALLY STRESSED OUT 738 00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:36,267 'CAUSE WE'VE BEEN IN HOUSTON FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS, 739 00:41:36,267 --> 00:41:37,900 AND WE STILL HAVEN'T FOUND A HOUSE. 740 00:41:37,900 --> 00:41:39,333 BEEN LIVING IN HOTELS. 741 00:41:39,333 --> 00:41:41,067 AND WE'RE RUNNING LOW ON MONEY. 742 00:41:41,067 --> 00:41:44,067 Darlene: CHARLIE'S GONNA HAVE TO GET A JOB, RIGHT? 743 00:41:44,067 --> 00:41:48,067 HE'S BEEN LOOKING. LIKE, SOME OF THE GAS STATIONS AND STUFF. 744 00:41:48,067 --> 00:41:50,833 WITHOUT CHARLIE GETTING A JOB, WE'RE STUCK HERE. 745 00:41:50,833 --> 00:41:53,733 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ONCE WE'RE BROKE. 746 00:41:53,733 --> 00:41:56,100 THIS IS VERY STRESSFUL. 747 00:41:56,100 --> 00:41:58,133 ARE YOU GETTING HUNGRY? 748 00:42:01,367 --> 00:42:03,200 HELLO? 749 00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:06,767 Nicole: MY ONLY GO-TO THING WAS FOOD. 750 00:42:06,767 --> 00:42:09,433 NOW THAT I'M HERE, NOW THAT I'VE SEEN THE DOCTOR, 751 00:42:09,433 --> 00:42:10,900 I WANT TO DO THIS. 752 00:42:10,900 --> 00:42:14,133 SO I'M TRYING TO EAT AS HEALTHY AS I CAN. 753 00:42:14,133 --> 00:42:16,467 HOW MANY OF THESE DO YOU WANT, NIKKI? 754 00:42:18,733 --> 00:42:20,833 ONE PIECE IS ONE SERVING. 755 00:42:24,800 --> 00:42:27,100 BUT ME LIVING IN HOTELS, 756 00:42:27,100 --> 00:42:29,333 I DON'T KNOW IF MY WEIGHT LOSS IS ON TRACK 757 00:42:29,333 --> 00:42:30,933 BECAUSE YOU CAN'T MICROWAVE 758 00:42:30,933 --> 00:42:34,100 A BUNCH OF HEALTHY FOOD ALL THE TIME. 759 00:42:34,100 --> 00:42:37,700 I'M REALLY TIRED OF MICROWAVE FOOD. 760 00:42:37,700 --> 00:42:39,700 Jim: I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS WAS EATING FOR SUPPER, 761 00:42:39,700 --> 00:42:41,100 AND I ATE A BUNCH OF PIZZA. 762 00:42:41,100 --> 00:42:42,367 WHAT? 763 00:42:42,367 --> 00:42:44,933 I WAS UPTOWN RIDING AROUND A LITTLE BIT AGO, 764 00:42:44,933 --> 00:42:47,767 SO I STOPPED AT THAT PIZZA SHOP, AND I ATE UPTOWN. 765 00:42:47,767 --> 00:42:49,500 YOU ATE A BIG OLD PIECE OF PIZZA? 766 00:42:49,500 --> 00:42:51,300 YEAH, I ATE A BUNCH OF PIZZA. 767 00:42:51,300 --> 00:42:53,067 FOUR SLICES FOR $5. 768 00:42:53,067 --> 00:42:54,600 FOUR SLICES OF PIZZA! 769 00:42:54,600 --> 00:42:55,933 YEAH, AND, I MEAN, THEY WERE BIG. 770 00:42:55,933 --> 00:42:58,500 WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE EATING HEALTHY TOGETHER. 771 00:42:58,500 --> 00:43:00,967 I KNOW, BUT THAT'S WHY I ATE IT BEFORE I COME BACK HERE. 772 00:43:00,967 --> 00:43:03,067 IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. 773 00:43:07,867 --> 00:43:10,700 CHARLIE, THAT'S NOT, LIKE, A DIPPING SAUCE. 774 00:43:10,700 --> 00:43:12,967 LIKE -- SCHWOOP! -- JUST LET ME DIP IT. 775 00:43:12,967 --> 00:43:15,400 THAT'S A LOT OF BUTTER, DUDE! 776 00:43:15,400 --> 00:43:19,067 YOU GOT TO HAVE A LOT OF BUTTER. 777 00:43:19,067 --> 00:43:20,633 Nicole: I KNOW IT'S HARD FOR MY FAMILY 778 00:43:20,633 --> 00:43:23,067 TO HAVE TO DO THIS WITH ME. 779 00:43:23,067 --> 00:43:25,233 BUT HOW THEY'RE TREATING ME RIGHT NOW 780 00:43:25,233 --> 00:43:28,667 MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M ON MY OWN. 781 00:43:28,667 --> 00:43:31,667 I GO BACK TO SEE THE DOCTOR IN A WEEK. 782 00:43:31,667 --> 00:43:34,467 AND I JUST NEED TO STAY ON TRACK TILL THEN. 783 00:43:44,400 --> 00:43:46,400 TODAY, I'M GOING TO A FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT 784 00:43:46,400 --> 00:43:49,233 WITH DR. NOWZARADAN. 785 00:43:49,233 --> 00:43:51,233 OVER THE PAST MONTH, 786 00:43:51,233 --> 00:43:55,600 IT'S BEEN REALLY DIFFICULT TO STICK TO HIS DIET, 787 00:43:55,600 --> 00:43:59,133 BUT I'VE TRIED REALLY HARD. 788 00:43:59,133 --> 00:44:02,233 NICOLE LEWIS? 789 00:44:02,233 --> 00:44:07,500 HE TOLD ME TO LOSE 30 POUNDS AND GET UNDER 654. 790 00:44:07,500 --> 00:44:12,067 AND I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA IF I'M EVEN CLOSE TO THAT. 791 00:44:12,067 --> 00:44:14,067 Woman: 673. 792 00:44:19,867 --> 00:44:21,333 I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED 793 00:44:21,333 --> 00:44:25,067 THAT I DIDN'T LOSE WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO. 794 00:44:25,067 --> 00:44:29,067 AND I'M SCARED ABOUT WHAT THE DOCTOR'S GONNA SAY. 795 00:44:29,067 --> 00:44:32,567 BUT I HOPE DR. NOW SEES THAT I AM MAKING PROGRESS 796 00:44:32,567 --> 00:44:34,700 SO I CAN GET BARIATRIC SURGERY. 797 00:44:37,567 --> 00:44:40,233 -HELLO. -HEY. 798 00:44:40,233 --> 00:44:42,633 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -DOING ALL RIGHT. 799 00:44:42,633 --> 00:44:44,467 STRUGGLING WITH SOME STRESS. 800 00:44:44,467 --> 00:44:48,300 WHAT SEEMS TO BE YOUR SORT OF, UH, STRESS? 801 00:44:48,300 --> 00:44:50,233 WE STILL NEED TO FIND AN APARTMENT. 802 00:44:50,233 --> 00:44:52,867 WE'RE GOING BACK AND FORTH TO DIFFERENT HOTELS. 803 00:44:52,867 --> 00:44:56,067 MY FAMILY PUTS ALL THE STRESS ON ME 804 00:44:56,067 --> 00:44:57,733 AND WANTS ME TO TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING 805 00:44:57,733 --> 00:45:00,367 INSTEAD OF TRYING TO HELP ME FIND A PLACE. 806 00:45:00,367 --> 00:45:03,167 SO YOUR FAMILY IS THE PROBLEM AGAIN? 807 00:45:03,167 --> 00:45:05,567 I'M EATING THE BEST I CAN WITH THE HOTEL. 808 00:45:05,567 --> 00:45:08,633 I FOUND, LIKE, SOME PRE-COOKED, LIKE, GRILLED CHICKEN 809 00:45:08,633 --> 00:45:10,500 AND THINGS LIKE THAT I CAN MICROWAVE. 810 00:45:10,500 --> 00:45:12,867 BUT MY FAMILY IS EATING FAST FOOD. 811 00:45:12,867 --> 00:45:16,133 AND IT'S SUCH A STRUGGLE TO FIGHT CRAVINGS 812 00:45:16,133 --> 00:45:18,500 WHEN EVERYONE AROUND YOU IS EATING THINGS 813 00:45:18,500 --> 00:45:20,067 THAT YOU'RE USED TO. 814 00:45:20,067 --> 00:45:22,533 ALL RIGHT. I SEE. 815 00:45:22,533 --> 00:45:25,567 NICOLE'S STILL NOT TAKING RESPONSIBILITY 816 00:45:25,567 --> 00:45:28,167 AND BLAMING EVERYBODY AROUND HER. 817 00:45:28,167 --> 00:45:30,233 SO THAT'S THE PRIMARY ISSUE 818 00:45:30,233 --> 00:45:32,300 THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS RIGHT NOW. 819 00:45:32,300 --> 00:45:35,800 NICOLE, I'M NOT APPROVING YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 820 00:45:35,800 --> 00:45:38,067 AND IF YOU WANT ANY CHANCE TO DO THIS, 821 00:45:38,067 --> 00:45:40,633 YOU HAVE TO STOP BLAMING YOUR FAMILY. 822 00:45:40,633 --> 00:45:43,300 YOU'RE THE ONE THAT NEEDS TO MAKE THE CHANGES. 823 00:45:43,300 --> 00:45:46,467 SO LOSE 30 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH 824 00:45:46,467 --> 00:45:48,600 AND SHOW ME THAT YOU CAN DO THIS. 825 00:45:48,600 --> 00:45:51,167 -SOUNDS GOOD. -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 826 00:45:56,333 --> 00:45:58,633 Charlie: READY? 827 00:45:58,633 --> 00:46:01,067 ALL RIGHT. 828 00:46:01,067 --> 00:46:04,267 Nicole: I FEEL A LITTLE FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW 829 00:46:04,267 --> 00:46:06,900 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I WORKED REALLY HARD, 830 00:46:06,900 --> 00:46:10,733 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I COULD DO ANY BETTER. 831 00:46:10,733 --> 00:46:15,733 BUT I'M SCARED BECAUSE I KNOW THIS MAY BE MY LAST CHANCE. 832 00:46:15,733 --> 00:46:17,733 AND IF I SCREW UP AGAIN, 833 00:46:17,733 --> 00:46:21,067 I'M GONNA HAVE NO HOPE AT SURVIVING ANOTHER YEAR. 834 00:46:26,800 --> 00:46:28,833 ** 835 00:46:34,600 --> 00:46:37,933 Nicole: SO, EVERYTHING IS REALLY STRESSFUL RIGHT NOW. 836 00:46:37,933 --> 00:46:40,967 Charlie: I GOT THE FOOD. 837 00:46:40,967 --> 00:46:43,967 Nicole: I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO BETTER THIS MONTH, 838 00:46:43,967 --> 00:46:46,667 BUT UNTIL WE FIND A PLACE TO LIVE, WITH A KITCHEN, 839 00:46:46,667 --> 00:46:50,933 WE'RE STILL MOSTLY RELYING ON TAKE-OUT AND FAST FOOD. 840 00:46:50,933 --> 00:46:53,700 AND EVEN WHEN WE COULD PICK SOME HEALTHIER PLACES, 841 00:46:53,700 --> 00:46:57,667 MY FAMILY DOESN'T WANT TO EAT FROM THERE. 842 00:46:57,667 --> 00:47:00,233 Charlie: I GOT CHERRY SYRUP PUT IN MINE. 843 00:47:00,233 --> 00:47:02,667 YEAH. THIS IS YOURS. 844 00:47:05,300 --> 00:47:09,333 SO I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO ORDER SOMETHING UNHEALTHY. 845 00:47:09,333 --> 00:47:11,933 THIS IS ALL STUFF THAT I CAN'T EAT. 846 00:47:11,933 --> 00:47:15,067 -I CAN'T HAVE BREAD. -WELL, I KNOW THAT. 847 00:47:15,067 --> 00:47:17,733 AND THAT'S WAY TOO MUCH MEAT. 848 00:47:17,733 --> 00:47:20,767 MY FAMILY ISN'T SUPPORTING ME AT ALL. 849 00:47:20,767 --> 00:47:24,067 MY PARENTS ARE EVEN THREATENING TO TAKE OUR KIDS BACK TO OHIO 850 00:47:24,067 --> 00:47:26,133 WITHOUT ME AND CHARLIE. 851 00:47:28,267 --> 00:47:30,700 SO I HAVE TO FIND A PLACE FOR US TO LIVE. 852 00:47:30,700 --> 00:47:32,967 Woman: Thank you for choosing... How may I assist you? 853 00:47:32,967 --> 00:47:34,767 HI. MY NAME IS NICOLE. 854 00:47:34,767 --> 00:47:36,967 I'M CALLING ABOUT A PROPERTY YOU HAVE FOR RENT. 855 00:47:36,967 --> 00:47:39,233 IT'S ON BEXLEY STREET. 856 00:47:39,233 --> 00:47:42,067 Um, we do have an open waiting list right now, 857 00:47:42,067 --> 00:47:43,833 From six months to one year. 858 00:47:43,833 --> 00:47:47,100 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. YEAH. I NEED SOMETHING IMMEDIATELY. 859 00:47:47,100 --> 00:47:50,300 WE NEEDED SOMETHING TWO DAYS AGO. 860 00:47:50,300 --> 00:47:53,067 WE'RE DOWN TO LIKE $580. 861 00:47:53,067 --> 00:47:55,067 WHEN THAT MONEY'S GONE, IT'S GONE. 862 00:47:55,067 --> 00:47:57,900 AND MY FAMILY, WE'RE GONNA BE HOMELESS. 863 00:47:57,900 --> 00:48:02,367 AND I WON'T LET THAT HAPPEN TO MY KIDS. 864 00:48:02,367 --> 00:48:04,133 THIS SUCKS. 865 00:48:04,133 --> 00:48:07,233 GIVING UP WHAT WE HAD TO GIVE. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 866 00:48:07,233 --> 00:48:09,400 THIS AIN'T MY FAULT. 867 00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:11,067 THIS IS JUST A SITUATION THAT HAPPENED 868 00:48:11,067 --> 00:48:12,833 THAT WE GOT TO GET THROUGH TOGETHER AS A FAMILY. 869 00:48:12,833 --> 00:48:15,567 IT DOESN'T HELP WHEN I'M GETTING JUMPED 870 00:48:15,567 --> 00:48:17,767 EVERY DAY OVER THE SITUATION. 871 00:48:17,767 --> 00:48:19,700 I'M NOT JUMPING, DUDE. I NAG YOU. I DON'T JUMP ON YOU. 872 00:48:19,700 --> 00:48:22,700 MY MOM NAGS ME AND SAYS SHE WISHES SHE WAS STILL IN OHIO. 873 00:48:22,700 --> 00:48:25,433 I DON'T SEE NONE OF YOU GUYS HELPING ME. I'M LITERALLY... 874 00:48:25,433 --> 00:48:28,100 'CAUSE YOU GOT ONE LAPTOP YOU WON'T LET NOBODY USE. 875 00:48:28,100 --> 00:48:29,600 I'M THE ONE OUT LOOKING FOR JOBS. 876 00:48:29,600 --> 00:48:31,100 I'M THE ONE OUT HAVING JOB INTERVIEWS. 877 00:48:31,100 --> 00:48:33,400 I DON'T SEE NOBODY ELSE GETTING JOBS, GETTING JOB INTERVIEWS. 878 00:48:33,400 --> 00:48:36,367 I HANDLE ALL YOUR JOB APPLICATIONS, 879 00:48:36,367 --> 00:48:38,067 -TALK TO REAL-ESTATE AGENTS. -RIGHT, RIGHT. 880 00:48:38,067 --> 00:48:40,400 AND I'M NOT SAYING YOU DON'T DO NOTHING. 881 00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:42,233 Darlene: LIVING IN OHIO, WE HAD A HOUSE. 882 00:48:42,233 --> 00:48:44,600 THE KIDS HAD A PLACE TO STAY AND PLAY, HON. 883 00:48:44,600 --> 00:48:47,433 YOU GUYS ARE DRIVING ME [BLEEP] NUTS. 884 00:48:47,433 --> 00:48:50,433 WONDER WHY I WANT TO GO HOME. I DON'T GIVE A [BLEEP] 885 00:48:50,433 --> 00:48:52,700 [BLEEP] 886 00:48:55,633 --> 00:48:58,400 Nicole: ALL THIS IS TEARING MY FAMILY APART. 887 00:48:58,400 --> 00:48:59,833 [ CHILD YELLS ] 888 00:48:59,833 --> 00:49:04,400 MY KIDS ARE LITERALLY MY ONLY MOTIVATION TO SAVE MY LIFE. 889 00:49:04,400 --> 00:49:06,900 SO IF MY MOM TAKES THEM BACK TO OHIO, 890 00:49:06,900 --> 00:49:08,967 I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THIS, 891 00:49:08,967 --> 00:49:12,233 AND I'M GONNA DIE. 892 00:49:12,233 --> 00:49:14,567 ** 893 00:49:18,800 --> 00:49:22,333 CHARLIE AND I HAVE BEEN OUT ALL DAY LOOKING FOR A JOB, 894 00:49:22,333 --> 00:49:26,233 BUT WE STILL HAVEN'T FOUND ANYTHING. 895 00:49:26,233 --> 00:49:28,233 IT'S BEEN SUCH A STRESSFUL MONTH. 896 00:49:28,233 --> 00:49:32,067 I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO GO TO MY LAST DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 897 00:49:32,067 --> 00:49:33,867 SO RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANT TO FORGET 898 00:49:33,867 --> 00:49:36,067 ABOUT ALL MY PROBLEMS AND EAT 899 00:49:36,067 --> 00:49:39,767 BECAUSE THIS IS STARTING TO BECOME TOO MUCH FOR ME TO BEAR. 900 00:49:41,767 --> 00:49:44,200 -How can I help you? -UM... 901 00:49:44,200 --> 00:49:46,533 CAN I GET A DOUBLE-MEAT CHEESEBURGER? 902 00:49:46,533 --> 00:49:49,133 -What kind of drink? -LARGE FRUIT PUNCH. 903 00:49:49,133 --> 00:49:52,467 AND I WANT, UH, A NUMBER THREE. 904 00:49:52,467 --> 00:49:54,433 -Anything else for you? -NO. 905 00:49:57,233 --> 00:50:01,667 Nicole: I'VE BEEN HOLDING BACK FOR SO LONG. 906 00:50:01,667 --> 00:50:04,900 AND RIGHT NOW, I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO EAT SOMETHING 907 00:50:04,900 --> 00:50:06,967 THAT TASTES SO GOOD. 908 00:50:09,700 --> 00:50:14,967 I KNOW THIS ISN'T THE FOOD I'M SUPPOSED TO BE EATING, 909 00:50:14,967 --> 00:50:17,700 BUT I DON'T THINK IT'S GOING TO CAUSE TOO MUCH DAMAGE 910 00:50:17,700 --> 00:50:20,933 TO CHEAT JUST A LITTLE BIT WHEN I REALLY NEED IT. 911 00:50:28,300 --> 00:50:30,367 I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO SEE THE DOCTOR 912 00:50:30,367 --> 00:50:33,867 AFTER HAVING MISSED MY LAST APPOINTMENT. 913 00:50:33,867 --> 00:50:35,233 NICOLE LEWIS? 914 00:50:35,233 --> 00:50:38,167 I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS SUPPOSED TO LOSE 30 POUNDS STILL 915 00:50:38,167 --> 00:50:40,100 OR WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO. 916 00:50:40,100 --> 00:50:42,000 SO I'M SCARED. 917 00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:44,533 IF THE DOCTOR DOESN'T APPROVE ME TODAY, 918 00:50:44,533 --> 00:50:48,800 MY FAMILY'S GONNA GIVE UP AND MOVE BACK TO OHIO. 919 00:50:48,800 --> 00:50:52,233 IF THAT HAPPENS, I HAVE NO HOPE. 920 00:50:57,400 --> 00:51:01,267 I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT THE SCALE SAID. 921 00:51:01,267 --> 00:51:03,933 IT'S DEPRESSING. 922 00:51:03,933 --> 00:51:07,767 I'M VERY WORRIED ABOUT WHAT DR. NOW'S GONNA SAY TO ME. 923 00:51:07,767 --> 00:51:11,733 I JUST HOPE THAT HE'S VERY UNDERSTANDING OF MY SITUATION. 924 00:51:13,867 --> 00:51:15,233 -HELLO. -HELLO. 925 00:51:15,233 --> 00:51:17,067 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -DOING ALL RIGHT. 926 00:51:17,067 --> 00:51:18,367 -HOW ARE YOU? -ALL RIGHT. 927 00:51:18,367 --> 00:51:22,133 SO, I GAVE YOU A CHALLENGE TO LOSE 30 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH, 928 00:51:22,133 --> 00:51:23,933 AND YOU LOST 11. 929 00:51:23,933 --> 00:51:26,500 I TOLD YOU TO TRY AGAIN AND WORK HARDER, 930 00:51:26,500 --> 00:51:29,067 AND YOU LOST 6 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 931 00:51:29,067 --> 00:51:30,267 SO WHAT'S GOING ON? 932 00:51:30,267 --> 00:51:32,867 I DIDN'T HAVE A REFRIGERATOR, A MICROWAVE. 933 00:51:32,867 --> 00:51:34,833 SO WE COULDN'T EAT HEALTHY. 934 00:51:34,833 --> 00:51:37,500 AND MY FAMILY WOULD BE EATING -- 935 00:51:37,500 --> 00:51:39,533 OKAY. I DON'T WANT ANY MORE EXCUSES. 936 00:51:39,533 --> 00:51:41,800 YOU'RE STILL RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR CHOICES 937 00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:43,100 AND WHAT YOU EAT. 938 00:51:43,100 --> 00:51:45,067 TO BE QUITE HONEST, I'M NOT HAVING 939 00:51:45,067 --> 00:51:48,800 VERY MUCH EMOTIONAL SUPPORT AT HOME. 940 00:51:48,800 --> 00:51:52,767 AND IT'S JUST MADE ME UPSET AT THIS POINT. 941 00:51:52,767 --> 00:51:56,567 I JUST FEEL LOST INSIDE. 942 00:51:56,567 --> 00:51:58,633 NICOLE, YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME. 943 00:51:58,633 --> 00:52:01,367 THIS IS A SERIOUS PROBLEM. 944 00:52:01,367 --> 00:52:04,533 I AM VERY CONCERNED ABOUT NICOLE RIGHT NOW. 945 00:52:04,533 --> 00:52:08,833 SHE MISSED HER LAST APPOINTMENT, AND HER PROGRESS IS EVEN WORSE. 946 00:52:08,833 --> 00:52:11,867 AND ON TOP OF ALL THAT, SHE STILL HAS A BIT 947 00:52:11,867 --> 00:52:14,933 OF A DELUSIONAL PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS. 948 00:52:14,933 --> 00:52:18,067 SHE IS USED TO MANIPULATING EVERYBODY AROUND HER 949 00:52:18,067 --> 00:52:22,067 TO THE POINT THAT SHE EVEN BELIEVES HER OWN EXCUSES. 950 00:52:22,067 --> 00:52:25,133 SO I DON'T THINK SHE'S GOING TO HAVE ANY CHANCE OF SUCCESS 951 00:52:25,133 --> 00:52:28,867 UNTIL WE START TO GET HER TO WAKE UP FROM HER DELUSION. 952 00:52:28,867 --> 00:52:32,100 WHEN LIFE GETS TOUGH, YOU DON'T GET A PASS. 953 00:52:32,100 --> 00:52:33,867 YOU ARE THE ONE THAT... 954 00:52:33,867 --> 00:52:35,967 YOU GOT YOURSELF IN THIS SITUATION. 955 00:52:35,967 --> 00:52:37,533 -THAT'S CORRECT. -AND YOU'RE THE ONE YOU HAVE 956 00:52:37,533 --> 00:52:39,800 TO GET OUT OF YOUR SITUATION. 957 00:52:39,800 --> 00:52:41,533 NOBODY IS GONNA PULL YOU OUT. 958 00:52:41,533 --> 00:52:43,300 -RIGHT. -YOU ARE, WHAT? 959 00:52:43,300 --> 00:52:45,100 -23 YEARS OLD? -YES. 960 00:52:45,100 --> 00:52:47,200 -AND YOU HAVE TWO KIDS? -YES. 961 00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:49,900 AND YOU GOT TO BE EMOTIONAL SUPPORT FOR THEM. 962 00:52:49,900 --> 00:52:51,733 -EXACTLY. -AND YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO 963 00:52:51,733 --> 00:52:54,233 BECOME A STRONGER PERSON. 964 00:52:54,233 --> 00:52:56,467 SO I'M GOING TO SEND YOU TO A THERAPIST 965 00:52:56,467 --> 00:52:58,567 SO WE CAN START TO GET ON THE SAME PAGE 966 00:52:58,567 --> 00:52:59,767 ABOUT A FEW THINGS. 967 00:52:59,767 --> 00:53:01,433 WE HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO. 968 00:53:01,433 --> 00:53:03,833 AND BECAUSE YOU MADE SO LITTLE PROGRESS, 969 00:53:03,833 --> 00:53:06,967 I'M REQUIRING YOU TO LOSE 30 POUNDS IN A MONTH 970 00:53:06,967 --> 00:53:09,233 -FOR TWO MONTHS IN A ROW. -OKAY. 971 00:53:09,233 --> 00:53:10,533 -OKAY? -ALL RIGHT. 972 00:53:10,533 --> 00:53:12,767 I NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU CAN DO THIS 973 00:53:12,767 --> 00:53:14,700 AND YOU CAN STICK TO IT. 974 00:53:14,700 --> 00:53:18,233 UNTIL THEN, SURGERY IS NOT AN OPTION. 975 00:53:18,233 --> 00:53:20,567 KEEP WORKING AT IT. AND I WILL SEE YOU SOON. 976 00:53:20,567 --> 00:53:23,100 ALL RIGHT. 977 00:53:26,967 --> 00:53:30,133 I'M REALLY DISCOURAGED. 978 00:53:30,133 --> 00:53:32,100 I'M WORSE OFF THAN WHEN I STARTED 979 00:53:32,100 --> 00:53:35,267 BECAUSE I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT OVER TWO MONTHS NOW. 980 00:53:35,267 --> 00:53:37,467 AND THE DOCTOR JUST DOESN'T UNDERSTAND 981 00:53:37,467 --> 00:53:40,067 WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH, 982 00:53:40,067 --> 00:53:43,267 BECAUSE I'M COMPLETELY DEPENDENT ON MY FAMILY. 983 00:53:46,267 --> 00:53:49,067 I JUST HOPE THE THERAPIST HELPS, 984 00:53:49,067 --> 00:53:53,300 BECAUSE IF I DON'T SUCCEED THIS TIME, 985 00:53:53,300 --> 00:53:55,800 I'M COMPLETELY OUT OF CHANCES. 986 00:53:57,867 --> 00:54:00,233 ** 987 00:54:08,733 --> 00:54:10,467 I'M GOING TO SEE THE THERAPIST TONIGHT 988 00:54:10,467 --> 00:54:13,933 LIKE DR. NOW WANTED ME TO. 989 00:54:13,933 --> 00:54:16,400 I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 990 00:54:16,400 --> 00:54:20,100 AND THE THOUGHT OF IT KINDA MAKES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH. 991 00:54:23,400 --> 00:54:25,933 BUT I DON'T WANT TO LOSE DR. NOW'S HELP. 992 00:54:25,933 --> 00:54:29,067 SO I'M DOING WHAT HE'S TOLD ME, 993 00:54:29,067 --> 00:54:32,533 EVEN THOUGH IT MAKES ME REALLY NERVOUS. 994 00:54:32,533 --> 00:54:34,433 -HELLO. -HI, NICOLE. I'M VANESSA. 995 00:54:34,433 --> 00:54:37,500 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU ALSO. 996 00:54:37,500 --> 00:54:39,867 SO, NICOLE, TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT 997 00:54:39,867 --> 00:54:41,833 HOW YOU GOT TO WHERE YOU ARE. 998 00:54:41,833 --> 00:54:45,467 I GREW UP IN, WHAT I'D SAY, A PRETTY BROKEN HOME 999 00:54:45,467 --> 00:54:49,800 WITH MY PARENTS JUST DOING HARD-CORE DRUGS. 1000 00:54:49,800 --> 00:54:53,400 AND I WAS OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND, YOU KNOW? 1001 00:54:53,400 --> 00:54:55,467 THEY HAD ONE FOCUS, AND THAT WAS DRUGS. 1002 00:54:55,467 --> 00:54:58,467 AND I'VE BEEN INVISIBLE TO THEM BASICALLY MY WHOLE LIFE. 1003 00:54:58,467 --> 00:54:59,733 AND THAT'S HOW I FEEL. 1004 00:54:59,733 --> 00:55:01,833 HOW'S THAT RELATIONSHIP NOW? 1005 00:55:01,833 --> 00:55:04,467 I'M STRESSED BECAUSE I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1006 00:55:04,467 --> 00:55:08,367 BUT I DON'T GET ANY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT. 1007 00:55:08,367 --> 00:55:12,167 SO MY BARRIERS ARE JUST THE NEGATIVITY AND THE ANGER 1008 00:55:12,167 --> 00:55:13,767 THAT'S IN MY HOME. 1009 00:55:13,767 --> 00:55:15,100 PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS ARGUING. 1010 00:55:15,100 --> 00:55:17,333 PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS YELLING. IT'S VERY STRESSFUL. 1011 00:55:17,333 --> 00:55:19,233 ESPECIALLY FOR CHARLIE AND I. 1012 00:55:19,233 --> 00:55:20,700 I'M IN THIS DARK PLACE 1013 00:55:20,700 --> 00:55:23,467 BECAUSE ALL THE HURT, 1014 00:55:23,467 --> 00:55:25,900 ALL THE PAIN AND ANGER THAT I'VE FELT OVER THE YEARS, 1015 00:55:25,900 --> 00:55:27,700 I'VE JUST HID IT INSIDE ME, 1016 00:55:27,700 --> 00:55:29,700 AND I'VE HID IT IN MY FEELINGS. 1017 00:55:29,700 --> 00:55:32,333 AND I'M TIRED OF TURNING TO FOOD. 1018 00:55:32,333 --> 00:55:35,867 UNLIKE ALCOHOL AND DRUGS, YOU HAVE TO HAVE FOOD. 1019 00:55:35,867 --> 00:55:38,067 -RIGHT. -YOU CAN'T ABSTAIN FROM IT. 1020 00:55:38,067 --> 00:55:41,600 SO EVERY DECISION YOU MAKE ABOUT FOOD, 1021 00:55:41,600 --> 00:55:42,867 YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT. 1022 00:55:42,867 --> 00:55:45,933 -YES. -SO THAT IMPACTS EVERYTHING. 1023 00:55:45,933 --> 00:55:47,367 -EVERYTHING. -YOUR WHOLE DAY. 1024 00:55:47,367 --> 00:55:49,967 HOW ARE YOU MAKING THOSE CHANGES? 1025 00:55:49,967 --> 00:55:51,467 I JUST -- 1026 00:55:51,467 --> 00:55:55,400 I DO IT ONE STEP AT A TIME, EVERY SINGLE DAY, ALL DAY LONG. 1027 00:55:55,400 --> 00:55:58,267 I DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO AVOID THINKING ABOUT FOOD. 1028 00:55:58,267 --> 00:56:00,433 AND IF I CAN'T HAVE THEIR SUPPORT, 1029 00:56:00,433 --> 00:56:02,300 THEN I'M GONNA HAVE TO BE MY OWN SUPPORT SYSTEM 1030 00:56:02,300 --> 00:56:04,333 AND JUST DO IT FOR ME. 1031 00:56:04,333 --> 00:56:08,333 I ENCOURAGE YOU, VERY, VERY MUCH, 1032 00:56:08,333 --> 00:56:10,300 TO REMOVE THE BARRIERS. 1033 00:56:10,300 --> 00:56:12,200 BE A LITTLE SELFISH. 1034 00:56:12,200 --> 00:56:14,100 MAKE THIS ABOUT YOU. 1035 00:56:14,100 --> 00:56:15,800 YOU CAN MAKE IT ABOUT THEM LATER. 1036 00:56:15,800 --> 00:56:17,833 BUT MAKE IT ABOUT YOU. 1037 00:56:17,833 --> 00:56:20,133 -OKAY. -THANK YOU SO MUCH. 1038 00:56:20,133 --> 00:56:22,067 I APPRECIATE YOUR STORY. 1039 00:56:25,567 --> 00:56:29,667 I FEEL ENCOURAGED TALKING TO THE THERAPIST TODAY. 1040 00:56:29,667 --> 00:56:31,500 THERE'S SO MUCH OF MY LIFE 1041 00:56:31,500 --> 00:56:34,933 THAT'S BEEN OUTSIDE OF MY CONTROL. 1042 00:56:34,933 --> 00:56:37,467 AND THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO CHOICE 1043 00:56:37,467 --> 00:56:40,400 IN A LOT OF SITUATIONS. 1044 00:56:40,400 --> 00:56:44,800 BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS AND MAKE THE CHANGES I NEED, 1045 00:56:44,800 --> 00:56:47,400 BECAUSE IF I DON'T AND I FAIL, 1046 00:56:47,400 --> 00:56:51,767 DR. NOW IS GONNA TURN ME AWAY, 1047 00:56:51,767 --> 00:56:53,600 AND I'M GONNA LET DOWN EVERYONE I LOVE. 1048 00:56:58,733 --> 00:57:00,900 ** 1049 00:57:06,133 --> 00:57:07,767 COME ON, BUD. YOU CAN DO IT. 1050 00:57:07,767 --> 00:57:10,300 Nicole: IT'S BEEN A REALLY GOOD FEW WEEKS. 1051 00:57:10,300 --> 00:57:11,633 CHARLIE FOUND A JOB. 1052 00:57:11,633 --> 00:57:15,433 AND WE WERE FINALLY ABLE TO AFFORD TO RENT A HOUSE. 1053 00:57:15,433 --> 00:57:18,467 NOW THAT MY FAMILY HAS SOME SPACE TO SPREAD OUT, 1054 00:57:18,467 --> 00:57:20,533 WE'RE GETTING ALONG A LITTLE BETTER. 1055 00:57:20,533 --> 00:57:23,300 YOU GOT CURLS LIKE YOUR DAD, GIRL. 1056 00:57:23,300 --> 00:57:26,767 I'M FOCUSING MORE ON THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT MAKE ME HAPPY. 1057 00:57:26,767 --> 00:57:29,500 AND I'M FINDING NEW WAYS TO STAY MOTIVATED. 1058 00:57:33,700 --> 00:57:36,867 I HAVE MY WEAK MOMENTS, BUT RIGHT NOW, 1059 00:57:36,867 --> 00:57:38,300 I FEEL REALLY ENERGIZED 1060 00:57:38,300 --> 00:57:41,100 TO MAKE SURE I REACH MY GOAL. 1061 00:57:41,100 --> 00:57:45,067 SO I'VE STARTED EXERCISING A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH DAY. 1062 00:57:49,367 --> 00:57:51,400 I STILL CAN'T DO A LOT, 1063 00:57:51,400 --> 00:57:54,100 BUT THE GOAL IS JUST TO STAY ACTIVE 1064 00:57:54,100 --> 00:57:56,667 AND STICK TO THE DIET. 1065 00:57:56,667 --> 00:58:00,633 SEVEN, EIGHT, NINE. 1066 00:58:00,633 --> 00:58:02,067 CHARLIE'S BEEN A BIG HELP. 1067 00:58:02,067 --> 00:58:03,667 HE COACHES ME AND HELPS 1068 00:58:03,667 --> 00:58:07,067 WITH EXERCISES I CAN'T DO BY MYSELF. 1069 00:58:07,067 --> 00:58:09,067 SO I'M THANKFUL FOR HIM 1070 00:58:09,067 --> 00:58:11,133 AND FOR HOW THINGS ARE RIGHT NOW. 1071 00:58:13,133 --> 00:58:15,867 -REACH FOR THE SAND. -THREE. 1072 00:58:15,867 --> 00:58:17,433 RIGHT. THERE YOU GO. 1073 00:58:17,433 --> 00:58:19,267 -GRAB A HANDFUL. -SIX. 1074 00:58:19,267 --> 00:58:23,067 THROW IT AT YOU. SEVEN. 1075 00:58:23,067 --> 00:58:28,167 I REALLY HOPE I MAKE THE PROGRESS I NEED BY NEXT MONTH. 1076 00:58:28,167 --> 00:58:29,733 IF I DON'T REACH MY GOAL WEIGHT, 1077 00:58:29,733 --> 00:58:32,900 DR. NOW SAYS I CAN'T BE HIS PATIENT ANYMORE. 1078 00:58:32,900 --> 00:58:35,067 MY HEART IS GONNA BE SHATTERED. 1079 00:58:45,900 --> 00:58:48,700 I'M BACK AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE AGAIN, 1080 00:58:48,700 --> 00:58:52,200 AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT 1081 00:58:52,200 --> 00:58:55,733 IF I'VE STAYED ON TRACK THIS MONTH. 1082 00:58:55,733 --> 00:58:58,967 NICOLE LEWIS? 1083 00:58:58,967 --> 00:59:03,733 HE WANTED ME TO LOSE 30 POUNDS TO GET UNDER 637. 1084 00:59:03,733 --> 00:59:05,967 BUT SO FAR, I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN CLOSE 1085 00:59:05,967 --> 00:59:07,900 TO REACHING HIS GOALS. 1086 00:59:07,900 --> 00:59:12,467 SO I HAVE NO IDEA IF THIS MONTH IS ANY BETTER. 1087 00:59:12,467 --> 00:59:16,200 ALL I KNOW IS I'VE TRIED AS HARD AS I CAN. 1088 00:59:16,200 --> 00:59:19,633 AND IF I FAIL, I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO. 1089 00:59:23,833 --> 00:59:25,800 THAT'S THE BEST I'VE DONE SO FAR. 1090 00:59:25,800 --> 00:59:29,767 BUT IT'S STILL NOT WHAT HE WANTED ME TO LOSE. 1091 00:59:29,767 --> 00:59:31,167 HOPEFULLY DR. NOW SEES 1092 00:59:31,167 --> 00:59:34,433 THAT I'M MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION 1093 00:59:34,433 --> 00:59:35,800 AND LETS ME KEEP TRYING, 1094 00:59:35,800 --> 00:59:40,500 BECAUSE I CAN'T LOSE THIS CHANCE. 1095 00:59:40,500 --> 00:59:42,133 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1096 00:59:42,133 --> 00:59:44,400 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -DOING OKAY. 1097 00:59:44,400 --> 00:59:48,967 ALL RIGHT, SO, TODAY YOU WERE 640 POUNDS. 1098 00:59:48,967 --> 00:59:51,133 -YEAH. -HOW DO YOU FEEL NOW? 1099 00:59:51,133 --> 00:59:52,733 IT'S ACTUALLY A LOT BETTER NOW. 1100 00:59:52,733 --> 00:59:55,367 I'M STARTING TO ENJOY HEALTHIER FOOD. 1101 00:59:55,367 --> 00:59:57,267 AND I'M ONLY DRINKING WATER. 1102 00:59:57,267 --> 00:59:59,233 AND WHAT ABOUT THE THERAPIST? 1103 00:59:59,233 --> 01:00:01,467 -DID YOU SEE HER? -YES. 1104 01:00:01,467 --> 01:00:03,700 AND, UM, SHE'S KIND OF TEACHING ME 1105 01:00:03,700 --> 01:00:05,800 HOW TO BE MY OWN SUPPORT SYSTEM. 1106 01:00:05,800 --> 01:00:07,700 AND I FEEL MORE POSITIVE. 1107 01:00:07,700 --> 01:00:10,267 SO WE'RE ON THE RIGHT TRACK. 1108 01:00:10,267 --> 01:00:11,967 Dr. Nowzaradan: NICOLE IS DOING MUCH BETTER NOW 1109 01:00:11,967 --> 01:00:14,967 THAN SHE DID THE FIRST THREE MONTHS. 1110 01:00:14,967 --> 01:00:17,700 SHE DIDN'T HIT THE WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL I GAVE HER, 1111 01:00:17,700 --> 01:00:19,767 BUT THREE POUNDS IS CLOSE ENOUGH, 1112 01:00:19,767 --> 01:00:23,333 BECAUSE SHE'S STARTING TO GET ON TRACK LIKE SHE NEEDS TO. 1113 01:00:23,333 --> 01:00:25,500 AND I FEEL LIKE SHE STARTED TO TAKE 1114 01:00:25,500 --> 01:00:28,367 SOME RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER CHOICES. 1115 01:00:28,367 --> 01:00:30,300 SO, HERE'S THE SITUATION. 1116 01:00:30,300 --> 01:00:33,167 EVEN THOUGH YOU DIDN'T HIT THE 30-POUND MARK, 1117 01:00:33,167 --> 01:00:35,400 YOU MADE GOOD PROGRESS THIS MONTH. 1118 01:00:35,400 --> 01:00:39,067 SO I'LL GO AHEAD AND COUNT THIS AS A SUCCESS, 1119 01:00:39,067 --> 01:00:40,333 AS LONG AS NEXT MONTH, 1120 01:00:40,333 --> 01:00:42,933 YOU MAKE UP FOR IT AND LOSE 33 POUNDS. 1121 01:00:42,933 --> 01:00:44,367 ALL RIGHT. SOUNDS GOOD. 1122 01:00:44,367 --> 01:00:46,533 ALL RIGHT. SUPER. GOOD JOB. 1123 01:00:46,533 --> 01:00:48,567 -AND I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH. -ALL RIGHT. 1124 01:00:48,567 --> 01:00:51,400 -THANK YOU. -MM-HMM. 1125 01:00:51,400 --> 01:00:53,733 -GOOD JOB. -THANKS. 1126 01:00:53,733 --> 01:00:56,533 I FEEL LIKE DR. NOW WAS PROUD OF ME. 1127 01:00:56,533 --> 01:00:59,667 HE KNOWS THAT I'M TRYING. 1128 01:00:59,667 --> 01:01:03,433 AND IT FEELS REALLY GOOD TO HAVE HIM VALIDATE ME LIKE THAT. 1129 01:01:03,433 --> 01:01:07,967 IT'S ENCOURAGING TO FINALLY START TO SEE SOME PROGRESS. 1130 01:01:07,967 --> 01:01:09,900 AND I JUST WANT TO DO MORE NEXT MONTH 1131 01:01:09,900 --> 01:01:13,067 AND FINALLY GET APPROVED. 1132 01:01:13,067 --> 01:01:16,867 NOTHING'S GONNA STOP ME FROM HITTING THE GOAL 1133 01:01:16,867 --> 01:01:18,700 AND SAVING MY LIFE. 1134 01:01:21,467 --> 01:01:24,500 ** 1135 01:01:51,367 --> 01:01:53,800 PLEASE SHUT UP. 1136 01:02:14,333 --> 01:02:15,667 Nicole: MY DAD'S REALLY ANGRY 1137 01:02:15,667 --> 01:02:17,933 BECAUSE THERE WAS A DRUG RAID IN OUR BACK APARTMENT 1138 01:02:17,933 --> 01:02:19,333 THAT WE RENTED OUT. 1139 01:02:19,333 --> 01:02:22,300 COPS TOLD ME THAT THEY FOUND NARCOTICS 1140 01:02:22,300 --> 01:02:25,800 AND STUFF LIKE THAT IN THE BACK APARTMENT. 1141 01:02:25,800 --> 01:02:27,233 SO THE TENANTS WENT TO JAIL. 1142 01:02:27,233 --> 01:02:30,200 THE POLICE HAVE TO SEARCH THE ENTIRE PREMISES, 1143 01:02:30,200 --> 01:02:33,367 SO THEY TORE THE REST OF MY HOUSE APART, 1144 01:02:33,367 --> 01:02:35,733 BROKE MY FRONT DOOR OFF THE HINGES, 1145 01:02:35,733 --> 01:02:37,433 FLIPPED OVER COUCHES, 1146 01:02:37,433 --> 01:02:40,100 MOVED MY STOVE AND REFRIGERATOR OUT. 1147 01:02:40,100 --> 01:02:41,567 AND I JUST IMMEDIATELY GOT SCARED, 1148 01:02:41,567 --> 01:02:43,667 BECAUSE JADEN WAS CRYING. 1149 01:02:43,667 --> 01:02:46,200 THE COP TOLD ME TO PUT MY HANDS UP. 1150 01:02:46,200 --> 01:02:48,800 THE POLICE LITERALLY MADE ME LIFT MY STOMACH 1151 01:02:48,800 --> 01:02:51,633 TO SEE IF I HAD DRUGS UNDER MY STOMACH. 1152 01:02:51,633 --> 01:02:53,667 I FEEL VERY VIOLATED. 1153 01:02:53,667 --> 01:02:55,667 Darlene: WHEW! 1154 01:03:03,900 --> 01:03:06,967 A VERY STRESSFUL SITUATION FOR EVERYBODY IN THE HOUSE. 1155 01:03:06,967 --> 01:03:10,067 Jim: SHUT THIS [BLEEP] OFF RIGHT NOW. 1156 01:03:10,067 --> 01:03:12,633 IT'S GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU LOSING WEIGHT. 1157 01:03:12,633 --> 01:03:14,233 THIS SHOW'S ABOUT YOU, 1158 01:03:14,233 --> 01:03:16,600 NOT WHAT HAPPENS ON OUR DAY-TO-DAY PERSONAL LIFE 1159 01:03:16,600 --> 01:03:18,233 AND OUR GETTING DESTROYED BY THE [BLEEP] 1160 01:03:18,233 --> 01:03:19,700 HOUSTON POLICE DEPARTMENT! 1161 01:03:19,700 --> 01:03:21,300 IT'S ABOUT MY JOURNEY AND MY LIFE 1162 01:03:21,300 --> 01:03:24,067 -AND MY EVERYDAY CHALLENGES. -THAT'S RIGHT. 1163 01:03:24,067 --> 01:03:25,667 DOES THIS HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH WHAT YOU ATE TODAY? 1164 01:03:25,667 --> 01:03:28,467 IT HAS A LOT TO DO WITH IT. 1165 01:03:28,467 --> 01:03:30,367 IT'S SOMETHING THAT I'M GOING THROUGH. 1166 01:03:30,367 --> 01:03:32,567 -IT'S PART OF MY LIFE. -PART OF YOUR LIFE. 1167 01:03:32,567 --> 01:03:36,800 -WILL YOU JUST CALM DOWN? -NO. I WON'T. 1168 01:03:36,800 --> 01:03:38,567 Jim: IT AIN'T COOL, MAN. 1169 01:03:38,567 --> 01:03:40,767 Nicole: I'M REALLY UPSET RIGHT NOW. 1170 01:03:43,633 --> 01:03:46,933 I FELT LIKE THINGS WERE GOING SO WELL. 1171 01:03:46,933 --> 01:03:50,467 AND I WAS FINALLY MAKING PROGRESS. 1172 01:03:50,467 --> 01:03:54,733 AND THIS WHOLE SITUATION IS THE LAST THING I NEED, 1173 01:03:54,733 --> 01:03:58,500 'CAUSE ALL I WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW IS GIVE IN AND EAT. 1174 01:03:58,500 --> 01:04:01,067 BECAUSE FOOD IS LIKE A FRIEND TO ME. 1175 01:04:01,067 --> 01:04:02,300 IT ALWAYS HAS BEEN. 1176 01:04:02,300 --> 01:04:05,067 IT ALWAYS COMFORTS ME. 1177 01:04:05,067 --> 01:04:08,167 AND WHEN I FEEL LIKE MY WORLD IS FALLING APART, 1178 01:04:08,167 --> 01:04:10,733 IT'S BEEN THE ONE THING THAT'S SAFE. 1179 01:04:10,733 --> 01:04:13,200 [ SIGHS ] 1180 01:04:13,200 --> 01:04:16,967 AND RIGHT NOW, THAT'S ALL I WANT, 1181 01:04:16,967 --> 01:04:18,467 BECAUSE I CAN'T DO THIS. 1182 01:04:24,367 --> 01:04:26,567 ** 1183 01:04:33,200 --> 01:04:37,733 Nicole: THE PAST WEEK HAS BEEN EXTREMELY HARD. 1184 01:04:37,733 --> 01:04:39,433 SINCE THE POLICE RAID, 1185 01:04:39,433 --> 01:04:43,967 MY HOUSEHOLD IS FULL OF JUST COMMOTION. 1186 01:04:43,967 --> 01:04:47,733 AND IT MAKES ME SCARED AND STRESSED, 1187 01:04:47,733 --> 01:04:50,500 JUST LIKE WHEN I WAS A KID. 1188 01:04:50,500 --> 01:04:52,867 AND THAT'S MAKING IT SO INCREDIBLY HARD 1189 01:04:52,867 --> 01:04:55,267 NOT TO RUN TO FOOD. 1190 01:04:55,267 --> 01:04:57,067 BUT I CALLED MY THERAPIST, 1191 01:04:57,067 --> 01:05:01,167 AND WE TALKED ABOUT FINDING OTHER OUTLETS FOR MY EMOTIONS. 1192 01:05:03,400 --> 01:05:07,267 ONE OF THOSE IDEAS WAS TO WRITE DOWN HOW I FEEL. 1193 01:05:07,267 --> 01:05:11,067 SO I'VE BEEN WRITING POEMS AND SOME SONGS. 1194 01:05:13,667 --> 01:05:16,367 "SITTING IN THIS DARK PLACE, FROZE IN MY SEAT. 1195 01:05:16,367 --> 01:05:19,500 IN CLOSED SPACE, COMMOTION SURROUNDS ME. 1196 01:05:19,500 --> 01:05:21,233 MY THOUGHTS BEGIN TO RACE. 1197 01:05:21,233 --> 01:05:24,333 MY MIND STARTS TO WIND, AND I START TO FEEL THE RAGE. 1198 01:05:24,333 --> 01:05:26,400 HANDS START TO SHAKE, AND I'M LOSING GRIP, 1199 01:05:26,400 --> 01:05:27,933 AND I'M READY TO BREAK. 1200 01:05:27,933 --> 01:05:32,533 ABOUT TO BLOW MY TOP AND TEAR UP THIS WHOLE PLACE." 1201 01:05:32,533 --> 01:05:34,900 I'M TRYING HARD TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY 1202 01:05:34,900 --> 01:05:36,167 FOR MY OWN CHOICES 1203 01:05:36,167 --> 01:05:37,933 AND NOT BLAME MY FAMILY. 1204 01:05:37,933 --> 01:05:39,967 BUT IT WOULD MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE 1205 01:05:39,967 --> 01:05:43,167 TO FEEL LIKE I HAVE THEIR SUPPORT. 1206 01:05:43,167 --> 01:05:44,767 SO I'M WORKING UP THE COURAGE 1207 01:05:44,767 --> 01:05:48,233 TO TELL THEM HOW HARD IT IS TO DO THIS WITHOUT THAT. 1208 01:05:57,467 --> 01:05:59,900 TONIGHT, I ASKED MY FAMILY TO SIT DOWN WITH ME 1209 01:05:59,900 --> 01:06:01,200 SO I CAN TALK WITH THEM 1210 01:06:01,200 --> 01:06:03,600 AND SHARE A LITTLE BIT ABOUT HOW I FEEL. 1211 01:06:06,400 --> 01:06:07,967 AND I'M SCARED TO DEATH RIGHT NOW 1212 01:06:07,967 --> 01:06:10,567 BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW IT'S GONNA GO. 1213 01:06:10,567 --> 01:06:13,433 OHH. 1214 01:06:13,433 --> 01:06:15,567 IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE. 1215 01:06:15,567 --> 01:06:17,900 SO WE JUST NEED TO COME TOGETHER AS A FAMILY 1216 01:06:17,900 --> 01:06:19,867 AND ALL STAY ON THE SAME PAGE. 1217 01:06:19,867 --> 01:06:21,500 I KNOW THAT EVERYONE'S GAVE UP A LOT 1218 01:06:21,500 --> 01:06:24,067 JUST TO COME DOWN HERE FOR ME. 1219 01:06:24,067 --> 01:06:26,933 AND HERE WE SIT. AND I STILL DON'T HAVE THE SURGERY. 1220 01:06:26,933 --> 01:06:29,567 AND I KNOW THAT THAT FRUSTRATES YOU. 1221 01:06:29,567 --> 01:06:31,833 I KNOW IT DOES, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW 1222 01:06:31,833 --> 01:06:34,800 THAT THE DOCTOR'S PROUD OF ME. 1223 01:06:34,800 --> 01:06:37,100 I KNOW HE IS, BECAUSE I HAVEN'T GAINED ANY WEIGHT. 1224 01:06:37,100 --> 01:06:40,567 I'M DOING WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 1225 01:06:40,567 --> 01:06:42,733 BUT HE JUST NEEDS ME TO STAY MORE FOCUSED 1226 01:06:42,733 --> 01:06:48,300 BECAUSE I'M NOT QUITE MEETING THE GOALS AT EACH APPOINTMENT. 1227 01:06:48,300 --> 01:06:53,500 SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE NO ONE'S REALLY HERE FOR ME. 1228 01:06:53,500 --> 01:06:55,667 AND ME AND MOM DON'T SEE EYE TO EYE SOMETIMES, 1229 01:06:55,667 --> 01:06:57,267 'CAUSE WE'RE ALWAYS ARGUING. 1230 01:06:57,267 --> 01:07:00,567 I KNOW WE GET INTO IT ALL THE TIME, 1231 01:07:00,567 --> 01:07:03,100 BUT I DO CARE ABOUT YOU. 1232 01:07:03,100 --> 01:07:04,567 I KNOW YOU DO. 1233 01:07:04,567 --> 01:07:06,433 I'M JUST TRYING MY BEST TO GET THIS SURGERY 1234 01:07:06,433 --> 01:07:09,867 SO I CAN MAKE EVERYBODY BELIEVE IN ME. 1235 01:07:09,867 --> 01:07:12,367 Jim: WELL, I BELIEVE IN YOU, NIKKI. 1236 01:07:12,367 --> 01:07:13,833 YOU'RE LOSING MORE WEIGHT NOW 1237 01:07:13,833 --> 01:07:15,433 THAN YOU HAVE YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. 1238 01:07:15,433 --> 01:07:16,533 RIGHT. 1239 01:07:16,533 --> 01:07:17,733 YOU DON'T NEED TO GET THIS SURGERY 1240 01:07:17,733 --> 01:07:19,433 FOR NOBODY OTHER THAN YOURSELF. 1241 01:07:19,433 --> 01:07:22,133 YOU NEED TO DO THIS FOR YOU AND THEM TWO KIDS RIGHT THERE. 1242 01:07:22,133 --> 01:07:24,200 -UH-HUH. -YEP. 1243 01:07:24,200 --> 01:07:27,200 -THEM KIDS NEED A MOTHER. -YEAH. 1244 01:07:27,200 --> 01:07:31,067 AND I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO BURY MY KID. 1245 01:07:31,067 --> 01:07:33,800 I UNDERSTAND THAT. 1246 01:07:33,800 --> 01:07:34,967 I'M JUST TRYING. 1247 01:07:34,967 --> 01:07:37,067 BUT MAYBE SOMETIMES YOU GUYS 1248 01:07:37,067 --> 01:07:39,333 SHOULD TRY TO JUST EAT A HEALTHY MEAL WITH ME. 1249 01:07:39,333 --> 01:07:42,067 LIKE, MAYBE ONCE A WEEK START TRYING TO DO IT, YOU KNOW? 1250 01:07:42,067 --> 01:07:44,833 -YEAH. -ONE MEAL, ONCE A WEEK? 1251 01:07:44,833 --> 01:07:46,333 RIGHT. AND I PROMISE YOU GUYS 1252 01:07:46,333 --> 01:07:49,200 I'M NOT GONNA BRING YOU GUYS DOWN HERE TO WATCH ME FAIL. 1253 01:07:49,200 --> 01:07:51,133 I'M GONNA SUCCEED IN WHAT I NEED TO DO. 1254 01:07:51,133 --> 01:07:54,533 -AND YOU'VE SUCCEEDED THUS FAR. -YOU STICK TO IT. 1255 01:07:54,533 --> 01:07:56,700 YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT TRACK GOING THE RIGHT WAY. 1256 01:07:56,700 --> 01:07:59,600 WITH YOU GUYS AS MY SUPPORT, I'M GONNA DO IT. 1257 01:07:59,600 --> 01:08:01,500 YEAH, I JUST APPRECIATE EVERYBODY SITTING AROUND 1258 01:08:01,500 --> 01:08:03,133 AND TALKING TO ME AND WANTING ME 1259 01:08:03,133 --> 01:08:04,700 TO GET SOME THINGS OFF MY CHEST 1260 01:08:04,700 --> 01:08:07,233 AND JUST LISTENING TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. 1261 01:08:07,233 --> 01:08:10,400 YOU OUGHT TO TALK MORE OFTEN. 1262 01:08:10,400 --> 01:08:12,833 Nicole: I'M GLAD I DECIDED TO DO THIS. 1263 01:08:12,833 --> 01:08:14,867 AND I FEEL LIKE MY FAMILY HEARD ME. 1264 01:08:14,867 --> 01:08:17,300 AND THEY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL. 1265 01:08:17,300 --> 01:08:19,933 I HOPE THAT THEY JUST START SHOWING 1266 01:08:19,933 --> 01:08:21,433 THAT THEY'RE HERE FOR ME 1267 01:08:21,433 --> 01:08:23,400 AND THEY WANT TO HELP ME SUCCEED, 1268 01:08:23,400 --> 01:08:26,700 ALONG WITH TRYING TO GET HEALTHY THEMSELVES. 1269 01:08:26,700 --> 01:08:30,600 AND WITH THEIR SUPPORT, I'M HOPING I CAN DO THIS. 1270 01:08:30,600 --> 01:08:32,833 I SEE THE DOCTOR IN A FEW DAYS, 1271 01:08:32,833 --> 01:08:35,467 AND I FIND OUT IF I MADE THE PROGRESS I NEEDED 1272 01:08:35,467 --> 01:08:37,567 AND WHETHER OR NOT I'M GETTING THE SURGERY 1273 01:08:37,567 --> 01:08:39,867 I NEED TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1274 01:08:43,933 --> 01:08:46,200 ** 1275 01:08:52,100 --> 01:08:54,133 WE'RE BACK AT DR. NOW'S AGAIN, 1276 01:08:54,133 --> 01:08:57,367 AND I'M MORE NERVOUS THIS TIME THAN I'VE BEEN BEFORE. 1277 01:09:00,433 --> 01:09:01,900 Woman: NICOLE LEWIS? 1278 01:09:01,900 --> 01:09:04,100 THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST MONTHS 1279 01:09:04,100 --> 01:09:06,167 NOT TO RUN TO FOOD. 1280 01:09:06,167 --> 01:09:08,433 BUT I FOUGHT EVERY CRAVING. 1281 01:09:10,433 --> 01:09:13,200 I'M SUPPOSED TO LOSE MORE THAN I EVER HAVE. 1282 01:09:13,200 --> 01:09:18,067 AND I'M SO SCARED I'M NOT GONNA HAVE DONE THAT 1283 01:09:18,067 --> 01:09:20,933 AND I'M ABOUT TO LOSE MY ONLY CHANCE 1284 01:09:20,933 --> 01:09:21,900 TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1285 01:09:29,967 --> 01:09:31,833 ** 1286 01:09:35,667 --> 01:09:39,100 Nicole: I'M SO NERVOUS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT 1287 01:09:39,100 --> 01:09:42,433 IF I'M GETTING APPROVED FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1288 01:09:42,433 --> 01:09:45,333 DR. NOW SAID I HAD TO LOSE 33 POUNDS 1289 01:09:45,333 --> 01:09:48,133 TO GET UNDER 607. 1290 01:09:48,133 --> 01:09:51,967 AND I'VE TRIED HARDER THAN I EVER HAVE TO DO THIS. 1291 01:09:55,067 --> 01:09:57,533 Woman: 608. 1292 01:10:00,300 --> 01:10:02,333 Nicole: THAT'S SO CLOSE. 1293 01:10:02,333 --> 01:10:07,833 AND I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD BE EXCITED OR SCARED RIGHT NOW. 1294 01:10:07,833 --> 01:10:09,967 I JUST HOPE THIS IS ENOUGH 1295 01:10:09,967 --> 01:10:13,367 AND I'M NOT GONNA GET SENT AWAY OVER ONE POUND. 1296 01:10:13,367 --> 01:10:14,700 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1297 01:10:14,700 --> 01:10:16,367 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1298 01:10:16,367 --> 01:10:19,633 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -DOING ALL RIGHT. 1299 01:10:19,633 --> 01:10:21,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: ALL RIGHT, SO, NICOLE, 1300 01:10:21,567 --> 01:10:24,300 YOU LOST 32 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH. 1301 01:10:24,300 --> 01:10:26,867 YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO LOSE 33. 1302 01:10:26,867 --> 01:10:29,933 YOU ALMOST MADE IT, BUT CLOSE ENOUGH. 1303 01:10:29,933 --> 01:10:32,867 I'M GONNA APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 1304 01:10:32,867 --> 01:10:34,133 -OH, MY GOSH. -OKAY? 1305 01:10:34,133 --> 01:10:36,100 -THANK YOU SO MUCH. -THAT'S GOOD NEWS FOR YOU? 1306 01:10:36,100 --> 01:10:39,267 -YES, IT'S WONDERFUL NEWS. -ALL RIGHT. 1307 01:10:39,267 --> 01:10:40,300 Dr. Nowzaradan: AT THE BEGINNING, 1308 01:10:40,300 --> 01:10:41,667 NICOLE DIDN'T DO WELL, 1309 01:10:41,667 --> 01:10:45,033 AND SHE WASN'T TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER ACTIONS. 1310 01:10:45,033 --> 01:10:47,367 BUT DEDICATION TO LOSING WEIGHT 1311 01:10:47,367 --> 01:10:49,000 IN THE PAST TWO MONTHS SHOWS 1312 01:10:49,000 --> 01:10:51,367 THAT SHE'S READY TO MAKE CHANGES. 1313 01:10:51,367 --> 01:10:54,500 AND I THINK THE SURGERY WILL BE AN APPROPRIATE TOOL 1314 01:10:54,500 --> 01:10:56,867 TO HELP HER TO MOVE FORWARD. 1315 01:10:56,867 --> 01:10:58,300 I'M VERY PROUD OF YOU. 1316 01:10:58,300 --> 01:11:00,900 SO, WE'RE GONNA GET YOU ON A SCHEDULE HERE 1317 01:11:00,900 --> 01:11:02,367 FOR SURGERY SOON. 1318 01:11:02,367 --> 01:11:05,400 BUT YOU HAVE A HISTORY OF DEVELOPING BLOOD CLOTS 1319 01:11:05,400 --> 01:11:08,133 LIKE YOU DID IN YOUR FIRST PREGNANCY. 1320 01:11:08,133 --> 01:11:10,167 THOSE CAN BE DEADLY. 1321 01:11:10,167 --> 01:11:13,467 SO I WANT YOU TO GET YOUR AEROBIC ACTIVITY UP 1322 01:11:13,467 --> 01:11:15,067 BY WALKING EVERY DAY. 1323 01:11:15,067 --> 01:11:17,367 AND WHEN YOU CAN WALK FOR 10 MINUTES 1324 01:11:17,367 --> 01:11:18,833 WITHOUT SITTING DOWN, 1325 01:11:18,833 --> 01:11:21,500 THEN WE'LL SCHEDULE YOU FOR SURGERY. 1326 01:11:21,500 --> 01:11:24,133 KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, AND I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1327 01:11:24,133 --> 01:11:25,467 THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR EVERYTHING. 1328 01:11:25,467 --> 01:11:26,533 ALL RIGHT. YOU'RE WELCOME. 1329 01:11:29,700 --> 01:11:31,200 -IT HAPPENED. -I GOT IT. 1330 01:11:31,200 --> 01:11:32,333 -I KNOW. -[ LAUGHS ] 1331 01:11:32,333 --> 01:11:34,433 THAT'S AWESOME. -I TOLD YOU. 1332 01:11:34,433 --> 01:11:35,867 Charlie: I TOLD YOU YOU GOT THIS. 1333 01:11:35,867 --> 01:11:39,233 Charlie: I'M SUPER EXCITED. I'M KIND OF EMOTION ABOUT IT. 1334 01:11:39,233 --> 01:11:40,867 'CAUSE I LOVE HER SO MUCH. 1335 01:11:40,867 --> 01:11:43,300 I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER DIE BECAUSE OF HER WEIGHT. 1336 01:11:43,300 --> 01:11:45,633 NOW SHE'S GONNA HAVE THE SURGERY, 1337 01:11:45,633 --> 01:11:49,467 AND I'LL HAVE THE WOMAN I WANT TO BE WITH BESIDE ME. 1338 01:11:51,833 --> 01:11:53,667 Nicole: I'M SO EXCITED RIGHT NOW, 1339 01:11:53,667 --> 01:11:56,467 AND I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF. 1340 01:11:56,467 --> 01:11:59,633 AND I'M GETTING MY STAMINA UP TO WHAT THE DOCTOR NEEDS 1341 01:11:59,633 --> 01:12:04,267 SO I CAN GET MY SURGERY AS FAST AS I CAN. 1342 01:12:04,267 --> 01:12:06,400 I'M GONNA TRY TO AVOID MY WHEELCHAIR 1343 01:12:06,400 --> 01:12:07,933 AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE 1344 01:12:07,933 --> 01:12:11,700 BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE THE SURGERY 1345 01:12:11,700 --> 01:12:13,867 AND START TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 1346 01:12:17,233 --> 01:12:20,200 ** 1347 01:12:35,100 --> 01:12:38,067 I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO GET MY STAMINA UP ENOUGH 1348 01:12:38,067 --> 01:12:41,700 FOR DR. NOW TO SAY I'M READY FOR SURGERY. 1349 01:12:41,700 --> 01:12:44,067 AND NOW THAT THE DAY IS FINALLY HERE, 1350 01:12:44,067 --> 01:12:47,100 I'M REALLY NERVOUS. 1351 01:12:47,100 --> 01:12:48,833 I'M SCARED. 1352 01:12:48,833 --> 01:12:50,300 YOU'LL JUST GO TO SLEEP. 1353 01:12:50,300 --> 01:12:52,467 WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU'RE GONNA BE ALL BETTER. 1354 01:12:52,467 --> 01:12:53,800 BUT JUST -- IF I DON'T, 1355 01:12:53,800 --> 01:12:56,133 [ Voice breaking ] JUST PLEASE TAKE CARE OF THE KIDS. 1356 01:12:56,133 --> 01:12:58,267 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. 1357 01:13:01,833 --> 01:13:04,567 Nicole: I JUST WANT TO TELL MY PARENTS, CHARLIE, 1358 01:13:04,567 --> 01:13:07,800 AND MY KIDS THAT I'M SORRY FOR... 1359 01:13:07,800 --> 01:13:09,267 [ BREATHES DEEPLY ] 1360 01:13:09,267 --> 01:13:12,967 BEING BIG AND BEING A BURDEN ON THEM. 1361 01:13:12,967 --> 01:13:15,067 AND IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME, 1362 01:13:15,067 --> 01:13:18,167 JUST KNOW THAT I'LL WATCH OVER YOU. 1363 01:13:19,800 --> 01:13:24,067 MY BIGGEST FEAR IS SOMETHING COULD GO WRONG IN THE SURGERY 1364 01:13:24,067 --> 01:13:25,667 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 1365 01:13:25,667 --> 01:13:29,167 BUT I'M TIRED OF FIGHTING EVERY DAY TO LIVE. 1366 01:13:32,767 --> 01:13:34,867 SO I HAVE TO DO THIS. 1367 01:13:37,967 --> 01:13:42,600 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, NICOLE IS HAVING HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1368 01:13:42,600 --> 01:13:45,600 I'M PLANNING ON DOING A GASTRIC-SLEEVE PROCEDURE 1369 01:13:45,600 --> 01:13:48,233 ON HER BECAUSE MOST OF HER WEIGHT IS 1370 01:13:48,233 --> 01:13:50,067 IN HER ABDOMEN. 1371 01:13:50,067 --> 01:13:52,300 SO THERE'S NOT GOING TO BE ENOUGH SPACE 1372 01:13:52,300 --> 01:13:55,567 TO DO A PROCEDURE LIKE A BYPASS. 1373 01:13:58,867 --> 01:14:01,467 Dr. Nowzaradan: CAN YOU TURN THE ROOM LIGHT OFF? 1374 01:14:03,867 --> 01:14:06,433 Dr. Nowzaradan: DURING A GASTRIC-SLEEVE OPERATION, 1375 01:14:06,433 --> 01:14:09,800 WE REMOVE THE MAJORITY OF THE STOMACH. 1376 01:14:09,800 --> 01:14:12,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: DROP IT DOWN TO THE BOWEL. 1377 01:14:12,733 --> 01:14:14,700 Dr. Nowzaradan: A SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY LIMITS 1378 01:14:14,700 --> 01:14:18,400 WHAT A PATIENT CAN EAT IN ONE SITTING. 1379 01:14:18,400 --> 01:14:21,067 AND IF THE PATIENT REMAINS DEDICATED, 1380 01:14:21,067 --> 01:14:23,933 THEY WILL LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT QUICKLY. 1381 01:14:23,933 --> 01:14:25,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M TEARING UP THE TISSUE. 1382 01:14:25,867 --> 01:14:27,767 DON'T PULL HARD. 1383 01:14:32,200 --> 01:14:34,767 Charlie: WAITING FOR NEWS IS JUST HARD. 1384 01:14:34,767 --> 01:14:36,600 MY EMOTIONS ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE. 1385 01:14:36,600 --> 01:14:37,900 ONE MINUTE I'M HAPPY, 1386 01:14:37,900 --> 01:14:39,667 THEN I'M SCARED THAT SHE'S NOT GONNA WAKE UP, 1387 01:14:39,667 --> 01:14:42,067 SHE'S GONNA DIE ON THE OPERATING TABLE. 1388 01:14:42,067 --> 01:14:45,100 BUT SHE'S TAKING THE RISK FOR ME AND KIDS. 1389 01:14:47,667 --> 01:14:51,200 ALL RIGHT, GIVE ME ONE MORE DRAIN, PLEASE. 1390 01:14:51,200 --> 01:14:53,167 Dr. Nowzaradan: SHE'S GOT A LOT OF SCAR TISSUE 1391 01:14:53,167 --> 01:14:58,067 FROM HER C-SECTIONS, AND HAVING TO CUT PAST IT ALL 1392 01:14:58,067 --> 01:15:01,633 MAKES THE PROCEDURE A LITTLE BIT MORE COMPLICATED. 1393 01:15:02,500 --> 01:15:06,067 WATER, WATER, WATER. 1394 01:15:06,067 --> 01:15:08,067 BE CAREFUL. 1395 01:15:10,300 --> 01:15:12,867 OKAY, WE'VE GOT THAT FIGURED OUT. 1396 01:15:12,867 --> 01:15:14,600 LET'S REMOVE THE STOMACH. 1397 01:15:21,833 --> 01:15:24,500 EVERYTHING IS LOOKING GOOD. 1398 01:15:24,500 --> 01:15:27,767 WE CAN START TO CLOSE HER UP. 1399 01:15:27,767 --> 01:15:30,800 THE ROOM LIGHT ON. 1400 01:15:30,800 --> 01:15:33,967 -YES. -ALL RIGHT. 1401 01:15:33,967 --> 01:15:36,500 THAT LOOKS GOOD. 1402 01:15:38,833 --> 01:15:40,867 NICOLE'S SURGERY WENT PRETTY WELL. 1403 01:15:40,867 --> 01:15:45,467 WE ENCOUNTERED A LOT OF ADHESION FROM A PREVIOUS C-SECTION, 1404 01:15:45,467 --> 01:15:47,467 BUT I WAS ABLE TO MANAGE IT 1405 01:15:47,467 --> 01:15:50,567 AND STILL SUCCESSFULLY PERFORM THE SLEEVE. 1406 01:15:50,567 --> 01:15:52,333 Woman: NICOLE, WE'RE ALL DONE, OKAY? 1407 01:15:52,333 --> 01:15:53,833 YOU DID GREAT. 1408 01:15:53,833 --> 01:15:57,300 THIS SURGERY WILL KEEP HER FOCUSED FOR A BIT. 1409 01:15:57,300 --> 01:16:00,467 BUT SHE STILL HAS TO DEAL WITH HER EMOTIONAL ISSUES 1410 01:16:00,467 --> 01:16:04,100 TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS LONG TERM. 1411 01:16:04,100 --> 01:16:06,100 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE HARD FOR HER. 1412 01:16:08,433 --> 01:16:10,167 NIKKI. 1413 01:16:10,167 --> 01:16:11,600 HEY, BABY. YOU ALL RIGHT? 1414 01:16:15,967 --> 01:16:19,933 YOUR DAD'S LEG WAS HURTING, 1415 01:16:19,933 --> 01:16:22,433 SO THEY WENT HOME. 1416 01:16:22,433 --> 01:16:25,800 THEY'VE BEEN GONE FOR A WHILE. 1417 01:16:25,800 --> 01:16:27,467 I'M GLAD TO SEE YOU'RE AWAKE, 1418 01:16:27,467 --> 01:16:30,067 YOU'RE ALIVE, AND YOU WOKE UP. 1419 01:16:30,067 --> 01:16:31,600 THINK ABOUT THIS -- 1420 01:16:31,600 --> 01:16:33,567 THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF THE REST OF OUR LIVES. 1421 01:16:33,567 --> 01:16:35,067 I KNOW. 1422 01:16:43,667 --> 01:16:46,833 Nicole: IT'S BEEN FIVE DAYS SINCE MY SLEEVE SURGERY, 1423 01:16:46,833 --> 01:16:50,333 AND I'VE BEEN TRYING TO STAY AS ACTIVE AS I CAN. 1424 01:16:50,333 --> 01:16:53,267 'CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DEVELOP ANY ISSUES, 1425 01:16:53,267 --> 01:16:55,333 AND I JUST REALLY WANT TO GO HOME. 1426 01:16:58,067 --> 01:17:02,700 I HAVEN'T REALLY FELT HUNGRY. 1427 01:17:02,700 --> 01:17:04,433 THE NIGHT BEFORE MY SURGERY, 1428 01:17:04,433 --> 01:17:07,233 I WAS ACTUALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF A GROCERY STORE. 1429 01:17:07,233 --> 01:17:10,833 AND I LITERALLY HAD A BREAKUP WITH FOOD. 1430 01:17:10,833 --> 01:17:12,933 I SAID, "I'VE NEEDED YOU FOR SO LONG. 1431 01:17:12,933 --> 01:17:15,333 AND I'M GONNA NEED FOOD FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, 1432 01:17:15,333 --> 01:17:19,067 BUT I CAN'T DO THE RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU ANYMORE. 1433 01:17:19,067 --> 01:17:20,133 I HAVE TO END IT." 1434 01:17:20,133 --> 01:17:23,667 AND IT KIND OF MADE ME FEEL BETTER. 1435 01:17:23,667 --> 01:17:26,367 SO, YOU READY TO GO HOME? 1436 01:17:26,367 --> 01:17:29,333 I AM, BUT I'M WORRIED 1437 01:17:29,333 --> 01:17:31,067 BECAUSE OF ALL THE STRESS AND DRAMA 1438 01:17:31,067 --> 01:17:33,500 THAT TAKES PLACE IN THE HOUSE. 1439 01:17:33,500 --> 01:17:35,067 Nicole: I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S GONNA BE THE SAME 1440 01:17:35,067 --> 01:17:37,067 WHEN I GO HOME 1441 01:17:37,067 --> 01:17:40,900 BECAUSE THERE'S SOMETHING GOING ON BETWEEN ME AND MY DAD. 1442 01:17:40,900 --> 01:17:44,533 HE HASN'T COME TO VISIT ME IN THE HOSPITAL. 1443 01:17:44,533 --> 01:17:46,100 [ Voice breaking ] AND HE WOULDN'T EVEN CALL ME 1444 01:17:46,100 --> 01:17:47,300 OR ANYTHING. 1445 01:17:47,300 --> 01:17:49,233 IT HURTS. 1446 01:17:49,233 --> 01:17:50,633 IT BREAKS MY HEART. 1447 01:17:50,633 --> 01:17:52,067 [ SNIFFLES ] 1448 01:17:54,300 --> 01:17:57,900 SO, AS MUCH AS I WANT TO GO HOME, I'M SCARED TO 1449 01:17:57,900 --> 01:18:02,333 BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW THINGS ARE GONNA GO. 1450 01:18:02,333 --> 01:18:05,300 I GOT HERE BECAUSE I MADE BETTER CHOICES, 1451 01:18:05,300 --> 01:18:08,267 AND I HAD MY FAMILY'S SUPPORT. 1452 01:18:08,267 --> 01:18:10,633 AND IF THAT'S NO LONGER THE CASE, 1453 01:18:10,633 --> 01:18:12,400 I KNOW I'M NOT GONNA HAVE THE STRENGTH 1454 01:18:12,400 --> 01:18:12,767 TO STICK WITH THIS FOR LONG. 1455 01:18:18,933 --> 01:18:21,800 ** 1456 01:18:36,367 --> 01:18:38,867 Nicole: IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF MONTHS SINCE SURGERY, 1457 01:18:38,867 --> 01:18:43,833 AND I'VE BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD TO STAY ON TRACK. 1458 01:18:43,833 --> 01:18:46,133 WHEN I GOT HOME, THINGS STAYED STRAINED 1459 01:18:46,133 --> 01:18:48,067 BETWEEN ME AND MY DAD, 1460 01:18:48,067 --> 01:18:49,967 SO I'VE JUST TRIED TO STAY FOCUSED 1461 01:18:49,967 --> 01:18:53,867 AND AVOID ANY TEMPTATION WHEN I FEEL OVERWHELMED. 1462 01:18:53,867 --> 01:18:56,600 CHARLIE AND I HAVE BEEN GOING OUT TO STAY ACTIVE 1463 01:18:56,600 --> 01:18:59,300 AND SPEND TIME TOGETHER NOW THAT I CAN DO MORE 1464 01:18:59,300 --> 01:19:01,433 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN PRETTY MUCH BEDRIDDEN 1465 01:19:01,433 --> 01:19:03,567 OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP. 1466 01:19:03,567 --> 01:19:07,067 AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, THAT'S CHANGING. 1467 01:19:07,067 --> 01:19:09,300 -I'M KIND OF... -[ Chuckling ] WHAT? 1468 01:19:09,300 --> 01:19:12,067 I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY TO YOU. 1469 01:19:12,067 --> 01:19:13,700 I'VE GOT MY THOUGHTS WRITTEN DOWN. 1470 01:19:13,700 --> 01:19:16,067 YOU WROTE ME A LETTER? 1471 01:19:16,067 --> 01:19:17,300 "WE'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOUR YEARS. 1472 01:19:17,300 --> 01:19:19,967 IT'S BEEN A CRAZY RIDE FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS, 1473 01:19:19,967 --> 01:19:21,767 AND I'M GLAD THEY'VE BEEN WITH YOU. 1474 01:19:21,767 --> 01:19:23,967 YOU HAVE SOMETHING I'VE NEVER GAVE TO ANYONE. 1475 01:19:23,967 --> 01:19:25,633 IT'S MY HEART. 1476 01:19:25,633 --> 01:19:28,133 YOU ARE THE ONE I WANT TO GROW OLD WITH. 1477 01:19:28,133 --> 01:19:29,467 WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU, 1478 01:19:29,467 --> 01:19:31,700 I FEEL THE LOVE I'VE WANTED MY WHOLE LIFE. 1479 01:19:31,700 --> 01:19:33,767 MY HEART BEATS FOR YOU. 1480 01:19:33,767 --> 01:19:35,933 I LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING I'VE GOT, NIKKI." 1481 01:19:35,933 --> 01:19:37,300 I WANT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING. 1482 01:19:37,300 --> 01:19:40,067 [ Laughing ] OKAY. WHAT? 1483 01:19:40,067 --> 01:19:42,100 WILL YOU MARRY ME? 1484 01:19:42,100 --> 01:19:43,067 [ SNIFFLES ] 1485 01:19:43,067 --> 01:19:45,767 ARE YOU CRYING? 1486 01:19:47,367 --> 01:19:50,067 DON'T CRY. 1487 01:19:50,067 --> 01:19:51,833 SO? -[ LAUGHS ] 1488 01:19:51,833 --> 01:19:53,733 -SO? -YES. 1489 01:19:53,733 --> 01:19:55,067 -OKAY. -[ LAUGHS ] 1490 01:19:57,067 --> 01:19:58,967 THAT GOOD? 1491 01:20:01,133 --> 01:20:03,667 I WANT TO DO THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU FOREVER. 1492 01:20:03,667 --> 01:20:06,600 IT'S NOT YOUR JOURNEY ANYMORE. IT'S OUR JOURNEY. 1493 01:20:13,567 --> 01:20:15,300 I LOVE YOU. 1494 01:20:15,300 --> 01:20:17,567 SHE SAID YES! THAT'S WHAT I WANTED. 1495 01:20:19,167 --> 01:20:21,167 AT THIS MOMENT, I'M FEELING ECSTATIC -- 1496 01:20:21,167 --> 01:20:22,933 ENGAGED WITH THE WOMAN I WANT TO BE WITH 1497 01:20:22,933 --> 01:20:24,400 FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. 1498 01:20:24,400 --> 01:20:26,767 I NEVER EXPECTED THIS. 1499 01:20:26,767 --> 01:20:29,933 Nicole: I, LIKE, FEEL ON TOP OF THE WORLD, 1500 01:20:29,933 --> 01:20:33,100 AND, LIKE, I'M FINALLY STARTING TO HAVE A REAL LIFE. 1501 01:20:33,100 --> 01:20:35,633 I NEVER PICTURED YOU PROPOSING TO ME. 1502 01:20:35,633 --> 01:20:37,600 [ LAUGHS ] 1503 01:20:38,700 --> 01:20:41,667 ** 1504 01:20:44,367 --> 01:20:47,367 Nicole: TODAY, I'M GONNA TRY TO TALK TO MY MOM 1505 01:20:47,367 --> 01:20:50,500 BECAUSE OUR LIVING SITUATION ISN'T GONNA WORK ANYMORE. 1506 01:20:50,500 --> 01:20:53,233 [ SIGHS ] 1507 01:20:53,233 --> 01:20:55,533 I NEED TO BE IN A MORE STABLE ENVIRONMENT 1508 01:20:55,533 --> 01:20:57,267 IF I'M GONNA BE SUCCESSFUL 1509 01:20:57,267 --> 01:21:01,067 AND BE THE MOM MY KIDS DESERVE. 1510 01:21:01,067 --> 01:21:03,400 I REALLY WANTED TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION WITH YOU AND DAD, 1511 01:21:03,400 --> 01:21:06,600 BUT HE'S JUST NOT AROUND RIGHT NOW, 1512 01:21:06,600 --> 01:21:09,433 SO I GUESS I'LL JUST HAVE TO TALK TO YOU. 1513 01:21:09,433 --> 01:21:12,333 WE MOVED TO TEXAS FOR ME TO GET MY LIFE BACK, 1514 01:21:12,333 --> 01:21:15,700 FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO MOVE AND BE ON MY OWN 1515 01:21:15,700 --> 01:21:17,767 AND NOT HAVE YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME 1516 01:21:17,767 --> 01:21:20,667 OR RAISE MY KIDS BECAUSE I'M TOO IMMOBILE TO. 1517 01:21:20,667 --> 01:21:24,133 SO I WANT CHARLIE AND THE KIDS TO BE ABLE TO GO OUT 1518 01:21:24,133 --> 01:21:26,233 AND GET OUR OWN PLACE 1519 01:21:26,233 --> 01:21:29,400 BECAUSE I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM. 1520 01:21:29,400 --> 01:21:31,133 AND I THINK IT'S BEST THAT WAY 1521 01:21:31,133 --> 01:21:33,567 BECAUSE THERE'S A LOT OF SCREAMING 1522 01:21:33,567 --> 01:21:35,433 AND YELLING AND NEGATIVITY IN THIS HOUSE. 1523 01:21:35,433 --> 01:21:38,533 AND I JUST -- I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE. 1524 01:21:38,533 --> 01:21:39,967 I AIN'T GONNA BE MAD AT YOU 'CAUSE THAT'S 1525 01:21:39,967 --> 01:21:41,700 WHAT YOU COME DOWN HERE FOR. 1526 01:21:41,700 --> 01:21:43,967 I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO TELL YOUR FATHER. 1527 01:21:43,967 --> 01:21:46,067 HE HAS A PROBLEM, MOM. 1528 01:21:46,067 --> 01:21:49,233 THERE IS THOUGHTS IN MY MIND THAT DAD IS DOING DRUGS AGAIN. 1529 01:21:49,233 --> 01:21:50,867 AND I DON'T WANT THAT AROUND THE KIDS 1530 01:21:50,867 --> 01:21:53,300 BECAUSE THEY'RE GONNA GROW UP THE SAME WAY I DID. 1531 01:21:53,300 --> 01:21:55,467 BUT I'M THANKFUL THAT YOU'RE HERE. 1532 01:21:55,467 --> 01:21:56,700 YOU'RE MY MOM, AND I LOVE YOU. 1533 01:21:56,700 --> 01:21:59,867 AND I LOVE MY DAD, BUT I HAVE TO STAND UP 1534 01:21:59,867 --> 01:22:04,400 AND BE THE MOM THAT THE KIDS NEED ME TO BE. 1535 01:22:04,400 --> 01:22:06,200 I'M TIRED OF SITTING ON THE SIDELINES. 1536 01:22:06,200 --> 01:22:09,700 [ Voice breaking ] I'VE SAT ON THE SIDELINES MY WHOLE LIFE. 1537 01:22:09,700 --> 01:22:13,333 AND THAT'S WHY I MADE THIS CHANGE 1538 01:22:13,333 --> 01:22:17,400 TO GET RID OF ALL THIS WEIGHT AND TO GET BETTER. 1539 01:22:17,400 --> 01:22:18,767 YOU'RE DOING IT. 1540 01:22:18,767 --> 01:22:21,167 I WANT YOU TO BE INDEPENDENT AND SUCCESSFUL, 1541 01:22:21,167 --> 01:22:25,433 AND I HOPE YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST TO THE END. 1542 01:22:25,433 --> 01:22:26,900 [ SIGHS ] 1543 01:22:30,867 --> 01:22:32,333 I KNOW. 1544 01:22:40,700 --> 01:22:42,600 [LAUGHS] I KNOW. THEY DON'T EVEN LOOK GOOD. 1545 01:22:42,600 --> 01:22:44,733 [ LAUGHS ] 1546 01:22:44,733 --> 01:22:47,300 Darlene: I WANT NICOLE TO DO WAY BETTER THAN I'VE EVER DID 1547 01:22:47,300 --> 01:22:48,500 WITH HER CHILDREN. 1548 01:22:48,500 --> 01:22:50,367 AND THEN, I HOPE HER CHILDREN WILL DO WAY BETTER 1549 01:22:50,367 --> 01:22:53,533 THAN ALL OF US HAVE EVERY DONE. 1550 01:22:53,533 --> 01:22:55,633 Nicole: I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE HARD. 1551 01:22:55,633 --> 01:22:58,067 AND I LOVE MY PARENTS, 1552 01:22:58,067 --> 01:23:00,233 BUT THIS IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. 1553 01:23:02,533 --> 01:23:05,500 ** 1554 01:23:08,167 --> 01:23:11,300 I'M AT THE DOCTOR'S TO SEE HOW MUCH PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 1555 01:23:11,300 --> 01:23:12,833 BUT I FEEL REALLY GOOD. 1556 01:23:12,833 --> 01:23:15,233 AND RIGHT NOW, I'M NOT EVEN NERVOUS 1557 01:23:15,233 --> 01:23:17,433 ABOUT GETTING ON THE SCALE 1558 01:23:17,433 --> 01:23:20,333 BECAUSE I COULD FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BODY. 1559 01:23:22,333 --> 01:23:23,867 [ GASPS ] 1560 01:23:23,867 --> 01:23:25,767 -YEAH. -YES. 1561 01:23:25,767 --> 01:23:29,367 IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE SEEN MY WEIGHT THAT LOW, 1562 01:23:29,367 --> 01:23:31,167 AND I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 1563 01:23:31,167 --> 01:23:32,133 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1564 01:23:32,133 --> 01:23:33,233 -HELLO. -HI. 1565 01:23:33,233 --> 01:23:35,267 -HELLO. -TODAY, YOU'RE DOWN 1566 01:23:35,267 --> 01:23:37,867 TO 521 POUNDS. 1567 01:23:37,867 --> 01:23:40,300 HOW DOES IT FEEL? -IT FEELS AMAZING. 1568 01:23:40,300 --> 01:23:43,600 IT'S AN ENTIRE PERSON I LOST OFF MY BODY. 1569 01:23:43,600 --> 01:23:47,967 AND I'M JUST DOING MY BEST, AND I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 1570 01:23:47,967 --> 01:23:49,500 WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU, TOO. 1571 01:23:49,500 --> 01:23:53,300 AND, CHARLIE, I'M GLAD THAT YOU'RE NOT ENABLING HER ANYMORE. 1572 01:23:53,300 --> 01:23:55,400 KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AND GOOD LUCK. 1573 01:23:55,400 --> 01:23:57,500 -THANK YOU VERY MUCH. -ALL RIGHT. 1574 01:23:57,500 --> 01:23:59,067 NICOLE'S DONE VERY WELL. 1575 01:23:59,067 --> 01:24:02,767 IT TOOK HER A WHILE TO GET GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 1576 01:24:02,767 --> 01:24:06,067 BUT SHE'S DEALING WITH THE ISSUES THAT SHE NEEDS TO, 1577 01:24:06,067 --> 01:24:09,267 AND I'M CONFIDENT SHE WILL STAY ON TRACK OVER THE NEXT YEAR. 1578 01:24:11,500 --> 01:24:14,067 Nicole: I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 1579 01:24:14,067 --> 01:24:16,367 THERE HAVE BEEN SO MANY INCREDIBLE CHANGES 1580 01:24:16,367 --> 01:24:20,967 TO MY LIFE OVER THE PAST YEAR, AND I'M SO FOCUSED ON BECOMING 1581 01:24:20,967 --> 01:24:23,867 THE PERSON AND THE MOM I'VE WANTED TO BE. 1582 01:24:25,100 --> 01:24:28,500 ** 1583 01:24:28,500 --> 01:24:30,600 CHARLIE AND I ARE IN THE PROCESS OF FINDING 1584 01:24:30,600 --> 01:24:33,433 A NEW PLACE TO LIVE AND MOVING OUT. 1585 01:24:33,433 --> 01:24:35,833 MY PARENTS ARE GONNA STAY HERE TILL THE LEASE IS UP 1586 01:24:35,833 --> 01:24:37,900 AND THEN MOVE BACK TO OHIO. 1587 01:24:37,900 --> 01:24:41,333 COULD YOU IMAGINE YOURSELF IN THERE HAVING FUN? 1588 01:24:41,333 --> 01:24:43,333 DO YOU WANT TO GO? 1589 01:24:43,333 --> 01:24:46,300 SO, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, 1590 01:24:46,300 --> 01:24:48,600 WE'RE GONNA BE LIVING ALONE 1591 01:24:48,600 --> 01:24:51,567 BECAUSE I CAN DO SO MUCH MORE NOW, 1592 01:24:51,567 --> 01:24:54,333 NOT JUST ON MY OWN, BUT WITH MY FAMILY. 1593 01:24:54,333 --> 01:24:56,633 LOOK AT YOU, BUBBA! 1594 01:24:56,633 --> 01:24:58,767 Nicole: I'VE ALWAYS WANTED US TO BE A FAMILY... 1595 01:24:58,767 --> 01:25:00,667 WHEE! 1596 01:25:00,667 --> 01:25:03,167 Nicole: AND THE ONLY THING THAT'S HELD US BACK 1597 01:25:03,167 --> 01:25:05,767 HAS BEEN ME AND MY WEIGHT. 1598 01:25:05,767 --> 01:25:07,567 SHELBY. 1599 01:25:07,567 --> 01:25:10,133 Nicole: AND NOW I'M MAKING CHOICES DAILY 1600 01:25:10,133 --> 01:25:14,800 TO PUT MY FAMILY FIRST AND MY HEALTH FIRST. 1601 01:25:14,800 --> 01:25:17,700 AND EVERY TIME I SEE MY KIDS SMILE, 1602 01:25:17,700 --> 01:25:22,133 IT JUST MAKES ME WANT TO WORK EVEN HARDER. 1603 01:25:22,133 --> 01:25:25,167 SO I'M NOT GOING TO STOP. -WHOO! 1604 01:25:25,167 --> 01:25:26,633 Nicole: I'VE GOT A NEW LIFE... 1605 01:25:26,633 --> 01:25:28,567 COME HERE AND GIVE MOMMY A HUG. 1606 01:25:28,567 --> 01:25:31,333 Nicole: AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHERE IT TAKES ME NEXT.